LastLoveSong
attention seeker
- Oct 18, 2023
- 94
Why is death so incredibly scary? I know it's what I need to do asap but my brain still feels like it's incomplete (it is but still). Of course SI is a thing but I wish my brain understood that I literally need to do this and that it's never gonna get better, I wonder if it's because I'm really stupid or something. I just want a significant other so we can get a place together and be safe together or just ctb together honestly, or we can just stay in a tent I literally don't care I just don't enjoy being alone. I'm thinking about going homeless or just staying in a hotel for a little while as well, will probably wait until after new years. gonna spend money I don't have I guess, maybe I'll just get super drunk and cut or something