suicide is all i think about now

[depthss]

if im having a bad dau, i think about killing myself, if im having an incredible time, i still think about how much better things would be if i was dead. suicide is the one thing that crosses my mind every single day. it has become almost obsessive, the thought hardly leaves my mind. i get aggravated knowing i cant do it yet. thoughts of suicide just fully rule every other part of my life, it is one of my top priorities.
i dont want to be here, i am not afraid of death or pain. setting things up fills me with a feeling of eagerness. i hate having obstacles in my life that prevent me from doing it for whatever reason. this is all i want

 

[jefferson]

What's delaying you if I might ask?

I'm gonna do a bunch of MDMA with my gf once I get it in a few days. That's keeping me around till next weekend. Then it's SN & CTB time.

 

[depthss]

What's delaying you if I might ask?

I'm gonna do a bunch of MDMA with my gf once I get it in a few days. That's keeping me around till next weekend. Then it's SN & CTB time.i hav

i know a person that would be very upset by my suicide, and i like them, so i would feel guilty doing that to them. my hope is that i will someday feel very emotional over something, and do it impulsively without ever thinking of him

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I'm always and only wishing to be gone, ceasing to exist is all I wish for and think about as well, I personally find existing to be completely undesirable, I've only ever hoped for death. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[TheHolySword]

I understand, I'm there too. Every waking moment of every day I'm thinking about suicide. There's not any point that the thought of death isn't on my mind. I want to escape this pain and suffering.