Discussion Suicide is my retirement plan.

[Forever Sleep]

And you?

Is your proposed suicide more to avoid a current problematic situation or, a future one? Or, both?

In some ways, I see suicide as a preventative measure. If I make it into retirement age, I'm looking at:

- Not actually being able to retire because I won't be able to afford to!

- Having to try and struggle to work with likely physical illness and pain... If I can even find work at that stage.

- Being alone and possibly ill with no friends or family around.

- Ending up in some God awful council run care home.

- Getting to a stage where I can't physically CTB anymore.

I obviously don't want to let that happen! I hope I can get my shit together and get out before then.

 

[J&L383]

And you?

Is your proposed suicide more to avoid a current problematic situation or, a future one? Or, both?

In some ways, I see suicide as a preventative measure. If I make it into retirement age, I'm looking at:

- Not actually being able to retire because I won't be able to afford to!

- Having to try and struggle to work with likely physical illness and pain... If I can even find work at that stage.

- Being alone and possibly ill with no friends or family around.

- Ending up in some God awful council run care home.

- Getting to a stage where I can't physically CTB anymore.

I obviously don't want to let that happen! I hope I can get my shit together and get out before then.

I somehow made it to retirement age, but your name (love it) is apt for me now. Sleep is my friend, where in dreams I actually do enjoy life. (No physical pain or discomfort, no worrying about eating or not eating, no absence of things to do if I want to, time doesn't exist, and of course all the fun stuff like flying and swimming underwater!) There are plenty of people who enjoy retirement, but then there's lots of us, too. Life and living is a fickle beast.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I think in the same direction. The question is, when is the right time to commit suicide?

 

[lnlybnny]

Same. 29 and never had a job so I really don't think I have any other choice

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Same. 29 and never had a job so I really don't think I have any other choice

35 here, last worked at 29. Should have been career building for 13 years or so. It's so grim.

 

[Darkover]

i don't believe i need to worry about making it to retirement age, i will hopefully be dead before then
i would not stick around for a natural death to painful

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think in the same direction. The question is, when is the right time to commit suicide?

Yeah, true. Probably different for everyone. Depends on why you're holding on to an extent maybe. I want to wait for my Dad to go first. I often feel like I'll be able to do it immediately then but, I won't realistically know till it happens. The whole thing still terrifies me. The worry of course is leaving it too long and being in a position where I can't do it.

Are you still holding on to hope for this life or, other people, or fear of the process? Obviously- no need to answer if that's too personal.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Yeah, true. Probably different for everyone. Depends on why you're holding on to an extent maybe. I want to wait for my Dad to go first. I often feel like I'll be able to do it immediately then but, I won't realistically know till it happens. The whole thing still terrifies me. The worry of course is leaving it too long and being in a position where I can't do it.

Are you still holding on to hope for this life or, other people, or fear of the process? Obviously- no need to answer if that's too personal.

On the one hand I am afraid to miss something good and on the other hand I am afraid to find myself in a situation were I cannot kill myself anymore.

 

[Pryras]

I'm 27 but don't plan on staying around for retirement age. Suicide is my destiny though and my end plan once I pay off a few debts and get things sorted (should take a max 4.5-5 months).

 

[lnlybnny]

35 here, last worked at 29. Should have been career building for 13 years or so. It's so grim.

I know! It's like it's the only option... it's kinda claustrophobic

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Definitely relatable. I fucked up my life too much and will never be able to save anything for retirement. Heck, I won't even be able to retire, I would have to work the same shitty jobs until I drop dead.

 

[Sutter]

And you?

Is your proposed suicide more to avoid a current problematic situation or, a future one? Or, both?

In some ways, I see suicide as a preventative measure. If I make it into retirement age, I'm looking at:

- Not actually being able to retire because I won't be able to afford to!

- Having to try and struggle to work with likely physical illness and pain... If I can even find work at that stage.

- Being alone and possibly ill with no friends or family around.

- Ending up in some God awful council run care home.

- Getting to a stage where I can't physically CTB anymore.

I obviously don't want to let that happen! I hope I can get my shit together and get out before then.

Retirement.

Well was almost short sighted. At first I would have answered no worries considering I would be hanging up lifes mantle long before that time. I would be remiss though by not recounting that I had no plans of letting life itself age and walk me to the mushroom field. I had thought to either work myself dead, with just getting things done or when I knew the memories of a life time fell like leaves in fall from my mind it was time to go. If I had aged enough that dusty bones or paper thin skin would do me in from shuffling out to a good fire or stopped me from a well packed pipe, that would also be a bell ringing nigh that it was time for me to go. Frankly only my partners ageless defining smile, hug, and loving caress would have kept me here till the last drops of time fell. For those reasons I would have passed anyway.

Water running.

Retirement was always a moving target for me. Grew up fairly poor and hit the world like water running down a mountain. If one path didnt work, moved to another. Every problem with the current status of wealth in life was just a bend. I found what others felt was…uncomfortable…and did those jobs, learned what I could when I could. When it came to finances I spent my own time learning it. I was also patient, excruciatingly so. Im not a lion, and not the top 20% but I did well enough to get some beans and keep my self warm in retirement. Amusingly that time will never come to pass and I have accepted that.

There could be an entire library and then some discussed on changing/fixing financial issues. What I wrote is not meant to be unkind and by no means do I have any desire to have any one soul be hurt by my answer. I am by no means "successful" but I was a pebble you could stand on when everything else was washed away. Personally money pisses me off a bit.

There is no good send off Forever, no decent way to offer a solid hand on your retirement concerns, other than to say I genuinely would like things to be different for you.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Suicide is self-care to avoid problematic and unsolvable situations and circumstances that could cause hardship. Yet it's so difficult. I would love to retire peacefully with a good life on all levels.

 

[silentnights56]

I don't have much attachment in this life but it still takes careful planning and execution to ctb! I also hope to be able to exit before I lose the ability to care for myself. Being dependent on others for basic tasks is a nightmare!

 

[Lost Magic]

I hear you. I seen my mother die from cancer and both uncles from dementia. I don't want to end up in a similar predicament. People don't realise how horrible life can end for a lot of people.

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

Thats my plan too

 

[destinationlosangel]

My plan too. Thank you for putting into words what i would not have been able to myself.

 

[Roadrunner]

Same here!