Story Suicide pact dream

[LadyAlastor]

So I fell asleep last night and had a very beautiful dream, well a beautiful to people like us at least.

So in the dream I paired up with this woman and she was stunning, brown hair, blue eyes, White skin, chubby wore glasses definitely my type lol.

Her reasons for wanting to end it all were understandable to say the least they were very similar to my own,but we had planned it everything we were going to do we brainstormed we were in my place surprisingly.

We went out for breakfast it was pretty basic I think it was a Denny's, then after that we held hands and walked to a store to grab the items, it was a portable gas stove and a big block of coal and some extra coal just in case, we were in line still holding hands we made our purchase smiled at each other and walked back to my place.

We sat down I loaded up some pot and tobacco in a bong and we smoked a bit then watched anime.

She got hungry again and so was I so I ordered some food to be delivered we ate more listened to some music telling each other jokes and stuff just having a good time.

And then night time came it was around the stroke of midnight, we both got up grabbed a duct tape a lot of duct tape and sealed the door and the window the best we could she then started to set up the portable gas stove and the coals, however she wasn't upset, she wasn't crying, she was smiling and I was smiling I then went to my Xbox, and went to the YouTube app and played a song called beneath the mask from persona 5 on loop for an hour.

As Kohl's slowly started to heat up me and her had a final beer we were holding hands as we were drinking and finally we cuddled up on the bed, holding each other very close fingers intertwined and finally as the smoke just filled the room and just ended slowly though like the song was still in the background but it was slowly starting to fade out as I woke up.

It had to be one of the most beautiful dreams I had ever had and I will always remember it and I just had to share it with you guys also here is a link to the song beneath the mask honestly after having this dream I think my suicide song has changed it'll be beneath the mask from here on out it feels so fitting.

 

[orangepotato]

What a nice dream. It'd be nice to at least feel loved for once in my life before I die.

 

[LadyAlastor]

What a nice dream. It'd be nice to at least feel loved for once in my life before I die.

I feel you mate

 

[Midgardsorm]

To feel as are finally accepted for who you are, loved and a company to be appreciated.

It was more than a suicide pact dream.
To me all it needs is to end in a very good day where my hand, for once, were held why love.

Most of my dreams, I am literally a ghost. I could elaborate more but essentially is that.
The one I remember most were years ago, where I woke up feeling something that I never felt before.
But in the end, it was just a dream.

I don't know if you are looking for a partner. It's difficult these days and actually dangerous, but maybe you should. At least try to look for one when you are ready, if you plan to leave someday.

Obviously, consider recovery too. Maybe you can have the same dream, but why a recovery at the end.

Anyway, it must have been beautiful.

 

[FuneralCry]

While I often have nightmares, I do know that dreams can be better than reality. I can never seem to remember specific details of my dreams, I instantly forget them as soon as I wake up. It must of been nice to have had such a beautiful dream. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[LadyAlastor]

To feel as are finally accepted for who you are, loved and a company to be appreciated.

It was more than a suicide pact dream.
To me all it needs is to end in a very good day where my hand, for once, were held why love.

Most of my dreams, I am literally a ghost. I could elaborate more but essentially is that.
The one I remember most were years ago, where I woke up feeling something that I never felt before.
But in the end, it was just a dream.

I don't know if you are looking for a partner. It's difficult these days and actually dangerous, but maybe you should. At least try to look for one when you are ready, if you plan to leave someday.

Obviously, consider recovery too. Maybe you can have the same dream, but why a recovery at the end.

Anyway, it must have been beautiful.

I am looking for one, and I know the risks and I've tried recovery.... Yeah no it don't work, not for me.
I just hope one day that partner could be my love but I'd settle for

To feel as are finally accepted for who you are, loved and a company to be appreciated.

It was more than a suicide pact dream.
To me all it needs is to end in a very good day where my hand, for once, were held why love.

Most of my dreams, I am literally a ghost. I could elaborate more but essentially is that.
The one I remember most were years ago, where I woke up feeling something that I never felt before.
But in the end, it was just a dream.

I don't know if you are looking for a partner. It's difficult these days and actually dangerous, but maybe you should. At least try to look for one when you are ready, if you plan to leave someday.

Obviously, consider recovery too. Maybe you can have the same dream, but why a recovery at the end.

Anyway, it must have been beautiful.

To feel as are finally accepted for who you are, loved and a company to be appreciated.

It was more than a suicide pact dream.
To me all it needs is to end in a very good day where my hand, for once, were held why love.

Most of my dreams, I am literally a ghost. I could elaborate more but essentially is that.
The one I remember most were years ago, where I woke up feeling something that I never felt before.
But in the end, it was just a dream.

I don't know if you are looking for a partner. It's difficult these days and actually dangerous, but maybe you should. At least try to look for one when you are ready, if you plan to leave someday.

Obviously, consider recovery too. Maybe you can have the same dream, but why a recovery at the end.

Anyway, it must have been beautiful.

It's rare that I have dreams like this, I mean extremely most of my dreams are usually nightmares when I'm waking up in cold sweats or complete and total silence, just feeling numb to everything.

But with this dream this dream was different I actually woke up and smiled because it was something to smile about.

 

[Midgardsorm]

I am looking for one, and I know the risks and I've tried recovery.... Yeah no it don't work, not for me.
I just hope one day that partner could be my love but I'd settle for


It's rare that I have dreams like this, I mean extremely most of my dreams are usually nightmares when I'm waking up in cold sweats or complete and total silence, just feeling numb to everything.

But with this dream this dream was different I actually woke up and smiled because it was something to smile about.

I had a very strange dream last year. I can't speak about it because it would make no sense, but all I can say is that it was the very first time in my life that I felt worthy. I felt strong and capable.
It was about love, a lot of love. I was wise and prideful and I was all of this because I was loved like I never were.
Something strange and rare that I never felt before.

I wasn't entirely suicidal yet, so when I woke up, I was determined to make what I felt in that dream become true. I felt everything I ever wanted to feel and I couldn't let it be just a dream, it had to become reality.

Things have changed. Much has happened, every month, every day a part of that feeling were simply becoming unattainable for me and that drove me into a suicidal state that I'll recover anymore.

I wish I could dream of that again. One more time.
I wish I could have the same dream that you had. A suicidal pact, maybe it would make me feel better.

Fortunately I can still dream of having a dream.
Let's hope so.

I hope you find your partner. If recovery really isn't for you, then a really nice ending. I'm be rooting for that to happen.