amnotreal
Student
- Oct 20, 2019
- 137
i had surgery on feb 18th. i had decided to wait and do surgery and see if it could improve my quality of life. it did a lot. they found stuff that was unexpected. my colon was all messed up but it didn't need to be re-sectioned. it might eventually need that though. i have been learning about colostomy bags and stuff and wheel chairs and all these things that could become part of my life but maybe never will. i am trying to get comfortable with the idea that medicine and doctors can help me keep living by making it so i am healthy enough and able enough to live.
i thought i had really bad hemorrhoids but it was a prolapsed colon coming outside my body. the surgeon fixed it and removed so much adhesion's stuff and found endometriosis. im recovering from surgery. i need to wait and heal and then decide. i am gonna start ketamine infusions which in the past helped me a lot with ideations. im so anxious all the time. i really want to be healthy enough to go hiking again and
the surgery i had helped my body so much but the psychological impact is difficult and not being able to really exercise at all for a while is really difficult. i couldn't exercise before the surgery because of being sick and now i can't because i need to recover and i guess i am still sick. maybe i have always been sick. i want to garden again.
i thought i had really bad hemorrhoids but it was a prolapsed colon coming outside my body. the surgeon fixed it and removed so much adhesion's stuff and found endometriosis. im recovering from surgery. i need to wait and heal and then decide. i am gonna start ketamine infusions which in the past helped me a lot with ideations. im so anxious all the time. i really want to be healthy enough to go hiking again and
the surgery i had helped my body so much but the psychological impact is difficult and not being able to really exercise at all for a while is really difficult. i couldn't exercise before the surgery because of being sick and now i can't because i need to recover and i guess i am still sick. maybe i have always been sick. i want to garden again.