Survived a hospitalization. Now what?

[justagreenleaf]

I have had the worst 20 days of my life at the psych ward, during which we tried a wide range of medications.
I'm now outside and free, but I feel absolutely shattered and overanalyzed, probed and invaded. I have regained a very tiny hope for life, but I am still fragile.

Could anybody please offer positive words, share their story? I don't know if I will live or not (in the immediate moment, my SN was taken away).
I'm trying really hard.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Hey! I hope you will hear from lots of folks with stories! In the meantime, welcome back, and I'm so happy you've regained a very tiny hope for life. That's wonderful. And I hope they found some meds that might actually work and help you.

 

[absolute]

I have had the worst 20 days of my life at the psych ward, during which we tried a wide range of medications.
I'm now outside and free, but I feel absolutely shattered and overanalyzed, probed and invaded. I have regained a very tiny hope for life, but I am still fragile.

Could anybody please offer positive words, share their story? I don't know if I will live or not (in the immediate moment, my SN was taken away).
I'm trying really hard.

That is great that you have regained some hope. Please do not dwell on feeling probed and invaded because you will probably never see or hear from them again.

 

[wilted_biography]

ONE tiny mili-second at a time! You've been through war and now try to relish your victory of coming out on the other side!

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I'm sorry you had to go through that but I'm glad you're still here with us and that you've gained a little hope. I know it's hard and you must feel alone and not knowing what to do but it is really one step at a time. Don't pressure yourself into anything and go with your pace. And I hope you can find something that will help you.

 

[LittleJem]

I'm in a psych ward now and I can say I am going to get decent food when I get out. That is something to look forward to... And probably drugs as no QOL without them. Oh and maybe get laid on drugs. I guess those are small things that make life outside the psych ward better than life inside it.

I'm not sure if any of those things are good for you. I'm sorry the psych ward was so traumatic. They are pretty barbaric places. They aren't giving me those meds as I have depression, so they just have me on the same ones as before but no drugs.

 

[justagreenleaf]

Feeling slightly better after the Wellbutrin. It's somewhat of a band-aid, but enough to keep going, and pray that a creative project of some sort arises from living a while longer.

 

[Arrow]

Good job on making it out. Cling to what little hope there is and stay resilient. There is no monster you can't face.