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BPD_LE

BPD_LE

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Aug 11, 2019
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I got that heavy feeling where it's difficult to lift your head. Everything aches. Like someone pushing down on me. Takes 3 x the effort to move anything. Think it's depression or numbness. Don't know. Anyone get that? MH assessment at 2pm. Need to mood shift. Fuck you BPD. I'll move, but I want a bloody medal for doing it.
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
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It's called brain fog. Very common with our condition. Good luck today ❤️
 
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a_strange_day

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Jul 16, 2019
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I've felt like this almost everyday for two years even though I'm only in my early forties. Sometimes I even have to sit down to put on my socks :) Definitely depression and everything that goes with it. And mentally I'm worse, even the smallest things seem so complicated.
 
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BPD_LE

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Aug 11, 2019
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It's called brain fog. Very common with our condition. Good luck today ❤
Oh is that what people mean by brain fog?! Now I know! Thank you x
For people who are interested in BPD mood swings..... I forced myself out with the dogs, listened to music and danced with them in the rain. Now I've gone too far the other way and feel hyper af! Chatted to myself all the way home.
 
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BadChanges

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Sep 23, 2019
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Oh is that what people mean by brain fog?! Now I know! Thank you x
For people who are interested in BPD mood swings..... I forced myself out with the dogs, listened to music and danced with them in the rain. Now I've gone too far the other way and feel hyper af! Chatted to myself all the way home.

In BP do you have sudden mood swings throughout the day? but not mania? like more going from normal to depressed(without depressive thoughts...heavy feeling, tiredness, etc)/
 
BPD_LE

BPD_LE

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In BP do you have sudden mood swings throughout the day? but not mania? like more going from normal to depressed(without depressive thoughts...heavy feeling, tiredness, etc)/
Are you asking about Bipolar or Borderline Personality Disorder?
 
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BadChanges

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Sep 23, 2019
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Are you asking about Bipolar or Borderline Personality Disorder?

Oh, BPD is Borderline Personality Disorder?

I'm trying to figure out what I have. So i'm asking about both, but I was basically asking about Bipolar.
 
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BPD_LE

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Oh, BPD is Borderline Personality Disorder?

I'm trying to figure out what I have. So i'm asking about both, but I was basically asking about Bipolar.

I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) also known as Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD) My moods shift rapidly throughout the day based on emotional triggers. It includes extreme happiness which they call euphoria. All emotions are x10 in intensity and can switch in seconds, especially anger. Very difficult to get back to baseline, can take hours.
Basically, I'm very dramatic! Lol.
 
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BadChanges

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I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) also known as Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD) My moods shift rapidly throughout the day based on emotional triggers. It includes extreme happiness which they call euphoria. All emotions are x10 in intensity and can switch in seconds, especially anger. Very difficult to get back to baseline, can take hours.
Basically, I'm very dramatic! Lol.

Do you know where I can ready about it? My mood changes multiple times throughout the day. Are you affected by foods as well?
 
BPD_LE

BPD_LE

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Do you know where I can ready about it? My mood changes multiple times throughout the day. Are you affected by foods as well?
I'm sure if Google you'll find decent info. With food, I'm Bulimic / Binge Eater.
With Bipolar I believe the moods last for weeks or months as opposed to minutes or hours. But I'm not an expert on Bipolar. Please someone correct me if I'm wrong.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I got that heavy feeling where it's difficult to lift your head. Everything aches. Like someone pushing down on me. Takes 3 x the effort to move anything. Think it's depression or numbness. Don't know. Anyone get that? MH assessment at 2pm. Need to mood shift. Fuck you BPD. I'll move, but I want a bloody medal for doing it.
You probably have emotions u are suppressing. That's what will weigh u down. If u can, type in instagram Richard Grannon into google or search engine and this little app comes up, I guess u don't need an instagram account to use it. It's a app to help u to identify your emotions and help get clarity and not to try to stuff them and avoid uncomfortable feelings. It's a little therapy app. I'm not saying this app will cure u but it's basically to help us get more in touch with emotions and be less afraid of them. You're suppose to work on this daily to improve over time.
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

My demon will see me undone
Oct 20, 2019
269
BPD is the fucking worst.

What people call brain fog can actually be disassociation. it sounds a lot like my disassociative episodes. Sometimes i can only feel my head, or sometimes i look up at a clock and its been 6 hours that i haven't moved. So many ways to present and is very common with BPD
 
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BPD_LE

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BPD is the fucking worst.

What people call brain fog can actually be disassociation. it sounds a lot like my disassociative episodes. Sometimes i can only feel my head, or sometimes i look up at a clock and its been 6 hours that i haven't moved. So many ways to present and is very common with BPD
When I disassociate I leave my body completely. I can stare without blinking for ages. My mind is empty of thoughts. It's warm and fuzzy and I don't want to come back.
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

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When I disassociate I leave my body completely. I can stare without blinking for ages. My mind is empty of thoughts. It's warm and fuzzy and I don't want to come back.
Sometimes it scares me but other times i really like it. it can be a nice break from feeling things.
 
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BPD_LE

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Sometimes it scares me but other times i really like it. it can be a nice break from feeling things.
I love it, but I have some control. I don't do it for 6 hours. I'm aware I'm in nowhere and can pull myself back if I try really really hard and know I have too.
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
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It's just a constant feeling of despair in the pit of my stomach. I didn't used to have that. I was woe is me depressed. Now I'm really fucking depressed and I brought it on myself
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

My demon will see me undone
Oct 20, 2019
269
I was at work once, as a delivery driver. I got to the restaurant i was supposed to pick up from about 15 minutes early, looked at my phone and poof. My boss called me an hour later and i was staring at a black screen the entire time, didn't even know it happened. Those are just the really bad ones though, most i can kind of worm my way out of.
 

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