The years nearing its end what was this year like for you

[lann.371]

like the title says, what was this year for you?

 

[sariff]

every year worse than the last.

 

[timeless001]

Pretty crazy. Hope I can chill from now on.

 

[destinationlosangel]

worst year of my life! After years of being miserable, i finally became what i thought i would never become. Suicidal. But on the bright side, i joined this forum and met some good people here. Probably some of the best people i've met in my entire life.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

This year has been so shit for me. Not a great start for my 30s. I basically spent the whole time in nightmarish limerence. Every day has been nothing but despair, dissociation, and often delusion when it's a good day.

I was supposed to CTB this year but it's nearing the end. I hope I'll get to do it by the end of the year at least.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Hell. Such sheer and pure hell. I'd post pics but then I'd log off forever Waiting and praying to a God (of which I have no belief) for help that will never come, at least from that deity anyway. Every year I think my life can't get worse... Finally I've learned not to tempt fate and think that, because maybe it rocks the boat. One of the few ways to help with pessimism, because it could be worse. It could always be worse... However this year sealed my fate tangibly with Sn as my fate was sealed long ago. Now if I can get my ass in gear, I can just make it official.

 

[Aergia]

Things were beginning to look up and I was beginning to feel optimistic and then I had an episode of sorts and now it's unimaginably worse than it's ever been.

 

[lok_sat]

started off decently but got crazy by around june before continuing on being shit till now, so basically going downhill.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

It's been shitty throughout just like the rest of my life. I'd say that this year is the worst year for me though simply because of how much more demanding it is than all of the previous years

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

The year began alright, looked like its finally gonna be different than the rest, but then it all went down and got worse than ever, causing me real preparations for CTB.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Started horrible, one of the worst years of my life. The psychotic symptoms I had for months are something I never want to experience again, ever, ever, ever.
I'm not as suicidal as I was back then but I can't stand this year anymore, I'm ready for it to end.

 

[HenryHenriksen_6E]

This year was the first one where I tapped into suicidal ideation, which grew over the spring months, and here I am. I wouldn't say this year was much worse than the past ones; instead, it feels like I've just matured into this mindset, if you understand. I've at least accomplished some things, so it's fighting the negative, although I'm wondering if I'll reach some form of limit in the near future, because living like this doesn't feel sustainable.

 

[NegevChina]

Definitely the worst year of my life. Started with an irreversible medical condition, had to leave my job, relations with my loved ones going downhill, soon will run out of money, few days ago my shoulder began hurting I can hardly do anything wear a shirt, tie my shoes, future is about to become worse, got to CTB soon to not witness me loosing my family and my house.

 

[darkness456]

"Everyone has a plan until they get punshed in the face"

 

[alienfreak]

Horrific and shattering in ways i never could have imagined and could not have prepared for. Worst in 5 years at least

 

[rozeske]

A year where I completely lost all will to live and just spent thinking about suicide and dying. I could say I died last year. Now they will only officially declare me dead.

 

[L'absent]

It started well, then my partner committed suicide, leaving me with children in a lot of problems. I spent my time solving other people's problems because I'm a person who uses my head. Enough is enough, everyone has given up on me and this time I decide for myself and take my life into my own hands while saying goodbye to all the imbeciles and incapables who have surrounded me. If my partner had waited 2 weeks to commit suicide he would have realized that I had saved him from every financial problem. Now I'm tired and I won't waste an ounce of energy on anyone anymore. I have been too good and neglected by many people. This time I'll bring down the curtain. Goodbye shitty world and shitty people! The weather is going well and my heart is cold. Now that I no longer have anyone who reminds me of my youth. Throughout my life I have always walked alone and no one held my hand, I was just exploited. Now with no one to walk the streets of the world... I stop everything. The comedy is over!

 

[blackbeauty]

There have been highs such as seeing friends and family get new jobs, fall in love, and travel the world so those times to celebrate others has been really nice but my life has been going downhill with losing a good job, struggling to find a new one and going into debt. Overall, the year has been .

 

[FuneralCry]

It was just another year of me suffering in an existence that I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable for me no matter what. I've suffered so much for so long and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish for a painless death to take all the suffering away and finally bring me peace, I find it painful to simply be conscious, I truly was never meant for something as futile and torturous as existence.

 

[radar311]

Every year it's getting worse and worse. I feel like life is just laughing at me. Or maybe it's just giving me more hints that it is time to go..

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Pure hell. It's been pure hell for the past five years or so. It just keeps getting progressively worse.

 

[mackerelpond]

like the title says, what was this year for you?

2023 was the worst year of my life, I had some hope for 2024 and in some ways it's been better than that but it's not gotten any more liveable :( I feel like I'm running out of energy to try to make my life better. I don't see myself making it far into 2025 :/

 

[divinemistress36]

Every year is the same

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Overall It went a lot better than 2023 when I was a total mess. And I made some progress this year with my OCD.
But if the past few days are any indication, it's about to go downhill. And my suicidal ideation is already ramping up.

 

[renrone]

thought i was getting better but i was just getting better at running from my feelings. i don't know how to feel the feelings i do anymore, i've been so numb this entire year i don't think i can go back from this.

 

[deadzombie6]

Worst year of my life

 

[Zanmato]

December is one if the worst month for me.
There is my birthday and is the last month of the year.
So I start thinking: Even this year I haven't done anything at all.
And I feel so... Useless?
Don't know how to explain, but I guess you can understand.
I see people enjoying Christmas and New Year Eve, but damn, for me it means: You haven't concluded nothing.

I wonder how it will be this year, maybe the same.

 

[lawlietsph]

Horrible. I lost my dog, 2 of my cats and my horse was sick the entire year. During summer I've hit my lowest. Sunshine made me want to stab myself in the eyeballs. Another year without making any progress, just eating away my pain and "hoping" for a nice remote job so at least I can feel financially safe.
Still no job.
I fucking hate it all.

 

[Trakehner]

One of the worst ones yet. Everything just feels empty and pointless now.

 

[Raven2]

Not the worst year but nothing significant has happened, good or bad. Just existing not really living.