This has been the worst year ever for me!

[BlueButterfly111]

And that's saying something because the past few years have been horrible! I'm at the end of my rode. I don't even know where to start. I lost someone who I considered to be my soulmate this year, he passed away 7 months ago. He was my best friend and the only person that really cared deeply. I only got to spend less than a year with him before he passed, and we had a deep connection! I've been unemployed for most of this year and am still unemployed now. And when I do find a job it's completely overwhelming ridiculous because I'm autistic and either the job is hard, or the people treat me bad, or both. I have no friends and I'm not close to my family and nobody really likes me. It feels like God or whoever just wants me to die. And I've been depressed for a long time but when my soulmate was taken away from me in the most brutal way. I was just done. And this is just my opinion, but the U.S. election, and the state of the world in general is just so depressing and hard to live in. I don't know how to get my thoughts out correctly, I just wanted to vent. My heart is just so broken with the way life has turned out. I don't even know why I'm still alive and I don't think I can do this for much longer.

 

[LukaParrot]

I never had someone that I could call like my best friend and someone that really care about me. I had friends but just "weak" friends that dont care.

At least you found someone, you had the opportunity and experience this in your life.

You seens to be still a young person, try a little more keeping a job and I really recommend getting a pet, small dog or cat, they offer uncondicional love, give us the will and energy to go through life.

 

[DegenerateLoser]

I am so sorry for your loss and I know how it's like to lose someone very close to you. The people in our lives are irreplaceable and you don't realize how much you care for them until they're gone.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I am so sorry for your loss and I know how it's like to lose someone very close to you. The people in our lives are irreplaceable and you don't realize how much you care for them until they're gone.

Thank you, I appreciate it. I'm sorry for your loss too!

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Ligottian]

This has been a shit year for me as well. I'll skip the details.