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[Schizotypal]

Hey! This is my first post here. I'd like to know why you all is here today. I never had a diagnosis but I know I have very bad anxiety (with really fucking potent insomnia) and became paranoid as the years goes by... And depression only was "visible" for me in my last 3, 4 years, but suicidal ideation was in my head since I was among 10! My anxiety and antisocial behaviour is so bad that I can't work, have extreme panic to be around people, sometimes anxiety beats me so strong I can't get out of my bed, only to poop in morning. Oh, I'm dealing with strong alcoholism in last years, and I'm drinking too much, only hard liquor and when have nothing to drink I will abuse chloroform, diethyl ether, acetone, isopropanol, paint thinner... My alcoholism are very bad now and I'm too coward to kill myself (my method is partial suspension). And I'm below 25!

 

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I can't relate but I wanted to say hi

 

[21Neberg]

Hey! This is my first post here. I'd like to know why you all is here today. I never had a diagnosis but I know I have very bad anxiety (with really fucking potent insomnia) and became paranoid as the years goes by... And depression only was "visible" for me in my last 3, 4 years, but suicidal ideation was in my head since I was among 10! My anxiety and antisocial behaviour is so bad that I can't work, have extreme panic to be around people, sometimes anxiety beats me so strong I can't get out of my bed, only to poop in morning. Oh, I'm dealing with strong alcoholism in last years, and I'm drinking too much, only hard liquor and when have nothing to drink I will abuse chloroform, diethyl ether, acetone, isopropanol, paint thinner... My alcoholism are very bad now and I'm too coward to kill myself (my method is partial suspension). And I'm below 25!

Have you given therapy a shot yet? It's what I'm going to try to deal with the same anxieties.

 

[21Neberg]

I can't relate but I wanted to say hi

I love your profile picture by the way

 

[Donewith_]

hey
hope you are doing better:)
i struggle with anxiety once in a while, get mild panic attacks. just a suggestion ..go for therapy. may be give it a try if possible

 

[Schizotypal]

I can't relate but I wanted to say hi

Hi :)

 

[Schizotypal]

Yes guys, I'm on meds that doesn't help me anymore. They work for a time but now they don't make me feel better, my doctors are very negligent and I'm using alcohol as self medication or just to pass the time and sleep. :(

 

[NumbItAll]

Welcome aboard and sorry for all those problems you've had. That sounds like a whole lot of bullshit to deal with. You're in good hands here. :)

 

[Donewith_]

Yes guys, I'm on meds that doesn't help me anymore. They work for a time but now they don't make me feel better, my doctors are very negligent and I'm using alcohol as self medication or just to pass the time and sleep. :(

sorry.. hope it gets better for you

 

[Schizotypal]

Thank you @NumbItAll and @Donewith_

 

[Schizotypal]

Feeling like my liver have, at least, 50 years old lol.

 

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I love your profile picture by the way

Hey thanks, Lil Peep is cool.

My cousin is a huge fan of him, She actually has "CryBaby" tattooed on her forearm in memory of him. She was lucky enough to see him live before he passed.

So young, talented, and on the brink of fame, what a tragedy. Rip