bitofftoomuch
hold onto those who accept your messy self
- Jul 1, 2024
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I think what's making Recovery so scary for me is that I want to take massive leaps, and keep finding them overwhelming and my ideation returning.
I would like to get more comfortable starting smaller. I feel like there's so much pressure to have so much accomplished at my age (late 20s) but right now I just need to eat enough, sleep right, exercise, and be productive at work. The problem is *just* doing those things feels lame and underwhelming, which makes them harder to do (my adhd brain needs stimmy). I'd like to unlearn that or at least push past that feeling. Because I know with enough time I'll be able to get back to forging meaningful relationships and having time for healthy doses of fun and leisure... it just feels so far away.
I would like to get more comfortable starting smaller. I feel like there's so much pressure to have so much accomplished at my age (late 20s) but right now I just need to eat enough, sleep right, exercise, and be productive at work. The problem is *just* doing those things feels lame and underwhelming, which makes them harder to do (my adhd brain needs stimmy). I'd like to unlearn that or at least push past that feeling. Because I know with enough time I'll be able to get back to forging meaningful relationships and having time for healthy doses of fun and leisure... it just feels so far away.