Tired

[yaa]

I just lay in bed everyday having suicidal ideation.. wish I at the very least had money to live comfortably but you have to be lucky, Inherit or work really hard to get it (maybe) my body and my life is a waste. Should've never been lived .. I refuse to be a slave at shitty paying jobs .. I rather live far away from society somewhere comfortable without a bill in site an barely any delusional ignorant people. It sucks being born not rich . Knowing someone else got things handed to them when u were born behind the starting line... Makes life even worse for meh and absurd.. because life is unfair and I refuse to accept this ... This is a sick game.. I wish I could easily leave.. I wish understood this realm more .. it's so chaotic unpredictable and evil with sprinkles of joy here an there that quickly dissolve after some time. I sit here and do my best to stay away from NPC content but it's everywhere.. people smiling ..new movies.. new games.. celebrity drama (ape drama.. they shit, piss, bleed the same as us .. no need to praise the narcissistic fuckers )political baloney.. they all be focusing on everything but the serious problems that need resolving