Help tmi ?? help i keep vomiting

[uselessflesh]

i had this symptom of anxiety(?) earlier this year and it was bad enough to the point where i couldn't eat and had to basically live off of liquids.

i went on effexor and it helped a bit but unfortunately had to be taken off, now unmedicated. now it's way worse and it's so fucking embarrassing having to excuse myself repeatedly to quickly leave the room to vomit, especially if they can hear it i REALLY have to force it out because of emetophobia but the feeling is overarching and i just want it over with. i'm scared since it's so much more frequent i'll have to live on liquids my family won't even get me, and i can hardly eat (i don't have a job or transportation i'm really trying but god hates me i think) so i fear i'll end up starving to add onto my countless other agonies.

for a bit of background i do have an eating disorder (arfid) body dysmorphia is there but isn't the leading drive. i don't really know what it is. all i had to eat yesterday was chips and some ramen, i don't remember when i last ate before that and i haven't eaten today and if i keep feeling sick unsure if i can stomach anything.

does anyone know how to deal with chronic nausea/anxiety better, or how to cope with not being able to eat much, i really want to be able to sit down and relax for more than 5 minutes

 

[Overwhelmed52]

I am in a similar boat. I had a major anxiety trigger recently and cannot eat anything. I've lost about 15 pounds in three weeks. I'm trying to get treatment and was put on Lexapro 10mg but it is making the anxiety worse. I'm hoping it's a temporary side effect, but it is particularly bad today and I am freaking out. I haven't been throwing up, and I try to drink high calorie liquids like regular soda. In the past when I had anxiety and lost a lot of weight I ended up drinking Ensure supplement drinks, but they are kind of expensive. Plus, I'm hoping that not eating or drinking much will stress my body and I'll get sick and die.
I wish I had some advice for you. Empathy is all I have to offer now. Anxiety is complete hell.

 

[Alo97]

I was helped in worst time by the biggest scum in the world - benzo. for a while weed also helped, but it quickly turned into the destruction of me even more, more drug states, paranoia that lasts to this day, so I do not advise it, beer can help if you do not have a problem with alcohol and can control yourself so that you do not become addicted. I know it's all rubbish, but I don't know anything else that helps right away. If you are able to wait, then after some time some people are helped by ssri or relaxation techniques and various herbs. for me, these states always ended with vomiting reflexes that sounded like I was vomiting and I was terribly ashamed of it. I sympathize with you going through this, I know how it is.

 

[Silent_cries]

You should consider getting new anti-anxiety medications, I've heard microdozing is apparently effective too, but I don't know much about it sadly.