Venting To anyone saying goodbye today…/ xmas vent thread

[opheliaoveragain]

I want you to know you are loved, and you never deserved to have life go this way. no one does.

if anyone wants to vent here or talk with likeminded people, please feel free to vent in this thread, length doesn't matter. long or short, whatever mood you're in, I accept you.

no judgement, no disrespect, only love.

let's try to be kind to each other on a day that is so unkind to so many.

love you SaSu fam.

~O

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I've got nothing really to vent atm. It's pretty neutral here this year, just a day like any other days but it's still a special time of the year.

I hope everyone enjoys the season as best as possible

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I've got nothing really to vent atm. It's pretty neutral here this year, just a day like any other days but it's still a special time of the year.

I hope everyone enjoys the season as best as possible

feel you, friend. glad you're feeling as okay as hopefully can be! sending hugs to you.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I want you to know you are loved, and you never deserved to have life go this way. no one does.

if anyone wants to vent here or talk with likeminded people, please feel free to vent im this thread, length doesn't matter. long or short, whatever mood you're in, I accept you.

no judgement, no disrespect, only love.

let's try to be kind to each other on a day that is so unkind to so many.

love you SaSu fam.

~O

You're an awesome person for posting a thread like this, despite your own struggles.

 

[destinationlosangel]

I want you to know you are loved, and you never deserved to have life go this way. no one does.

if anyone wants to vent here or talk with likeminded people, please feel free to vent im this thread, length doesn't matter. long or short, whatever mood you're in, I accept you.

no judgement, no disrespect, only love.

let's try to be kind to each other on a day that is so unkind to so many.

love you SaSu fam.

~O

Ophelia, you are the kindest

 

[TheHolySword]

I always enjoy seeing you around, you're so full of kindness. I don't have much to say but I sincerely hope today and this next week are kind and warm for you, at least as much as they can be. I'll be here with you too~

 

[Forveleth]

Thank you for posting this. Holidays are a tough time for me and I always appreciate someone acknowledging it's not all sparkly lights and joy for everyone. Much love to anyone not having the best of times right now

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I always enjoy seeing you around, you're so full of kindness. I don't have much to say but I sincerely hope today and this next week are kind and warm for you, at least as much as they can be. I'll be here with you too~

I enjoy seeing you around too I hope the best for you as well during this time, as much as possible. holding space for you thank you friend.

Thank you for posting this. Holidays are a tough time for me and I always appreciate someone acknowledging it's not all sparkly lights and joy for everyone. Much love to anyone not having the best of times right now

I definitely relate to them being tough. sending you huge hugs your feelings are valid af.

 

[rozeske]

Love you too o. I hope the holiday is as kind as you.

 

[Traveller12724]

You are the best O for posting this kind of thread. Holidays are usually a pretty rough time of the year for me, in fact I had previously planned to ctb around this month but I still have a couple of things to check off on my bucket list and there is a wedding in March that my ctb would have interfered with, I feel particularly low these days after losing a close friend of mine here on SaSu, we had talked every day for 5 months and now they are gone, the grief is honestly killing me even though I am happy that they found the peace they were seeking. Thank you for being such a kind human being O, Happy Holidays everybody!

 

[judestfrancis]

Thank you for posting this. holidays are so hard for so many people, myself included. today just makes me feel like im falling apart completely and utterly

 

[opheliaoveragain]

You are the best O for posting this kind of thread. Holidays are usually a pretty rough time of the year for me, in fact I had previously planned to ctb around this month but I still have a couple of things to check off on my bucket list and there is a wedding in March that my ctb would have interfered with, I feel particularly low these days after losing a close friend of mine here on SaSu, we had talked every day for 5 months and now they are gone, the grief is honestly killing me even though I am happy that they found the peace they were seeking. Thank you for being such a kind human being O, Happy Holidays everybody!

you already know I know those grief feelings are complicated, we're here for you. may this time be as kind as possible.

Thank you for posting this. holidays are so hard for so many people, myself included. today just makes me feel like im falling apart completely and utterly

fully relate. i'm definitely feeling low as shit today. it just emboldens my reasons.

you're so welcome, here if you wanna talk.

 

[L'absent]

I am happy because I feel death getting closer and closer and this fills my heart with joy and Christmas is magical with all its lights. Sooner or later my head will also be full of lights and I will partly belong to the holidays with my mind. Thank you and Happy New Year's Eve to everyone. I love you.

 

[skyflame]

Thank you for posting this <3

 

[newstart2000]

Can't feel happy anymore, just worried everyday.

 

[outrider567]

Today and tomorrow are the two most depressing days of the year for me

 

[dw33ter]

Thanks for posting this Ophelia, I think I needed to hear those words. Wishing you all the best this holiday season.

I feel incredibly alone and stressed and tired. I'm probably going to spend today numbing myself as much as possible to survive.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Can't feel happy anymore, just worried everyday.

i'm so sorry that you're in that worried place. I absolutely get that. you're not alone. it's such shit when the worry inhibits your ability to cope and feel happy. sending you hugs.

Today and tomorrow are the two most depressing days of the year for me

that's definitely one of the reasons I posted this. me too. always has been. you're not alone at all.

Thanks for posting this Ophelia, I think I needed to hear those words. Wishing you all the best this holiday season.

I feel incredibly alone and stressed and tired. I'm probably going to spend today numbing myself as much as possible to survive.

you're so welcome. I am definitely numbing myself today as well. try to hang in there friend I hope you can take some time to do something comforting etc


anyone who wants to reach out, please don't hesitate. no one deserves to feel alone.

 

[Shiru]

In holidays I feel useless because others are cooking the special dinner and I'm in my room with my phone but I don't have cooking skills I can't help and I'm not that close with other members of my family I feel uncomfortable around them I prefer not to help, the solitude in these times isn't a problem anymore, I can deal with it I hope you have a nice Christmas Day, sending hugs.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

In holidays I feel useless because others are cooking the special dinner and I'm in my room with my phone but I don't have cooking skills I can't help and I'm not that close with other members of my family I feel uncomfortable around them I prefer not to help, the solitude in these times isn't a problem anymore, I can deal with it I hope you have a nice Christmas Day, sending hugs.

I can relate to those feelings too hope you can use that solitude for the best, maybe watch your favorite movie or show. here if you would like to chat. sending hugs back.

 

[Tig]

I've always had a bad attitude towards Xmas, my dad died the day proceeding, Christmas eve, 49 years ago.

I always put a smile on though, when my Wife was alive, she loved the holidays so much.
She was my everything, I miss her so much, the words deny me.
I have such fond memories of how she made people shiny and new though the holidays, she gave so much, Effortless as she did so.
I will put a brave face on today for you, Kim Sheree, and keep it threre all day and through the night, as i know you would've liked it to be.

Thank you for reminding me Opheliaoveragain, of this very special person in my life and what it meant her to sparkle and shine during this day.
Merry Christmas to all

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I've always had a bad attitude towards Xmas, my dad died the day proceeding, Christmas eve, 49 years ago.

I always put a smile on though, when my Wife was alive, she loved the holidays so much.
She was my everything, I miss her so much, the words deny me.
I have such fond memories of how she made people shiny and new though the holidays, she gave so much, Effortless as she did so.
I will put a brave face on today for you, Kim Sheree, and keep it threre all day and through the night, as i know you would've liked it to be.

Thank you for reminding me Opheliaoveragain, of this very special person in my life and what it meant her to sparkle and shine during this day.
Merry Christmas to all

I feel for you and can identify with how you're feeling. that was so strong of you to do while she was here, and tenfold now that they are no longer on this plain. you truly are a very strong person.

I believe the ones we love stay with us. but that's just me.

have that smile, that chuckle at a memory, I hear you and see you

 

[PhDone]

omg my heart actually sighed when I read this post. Sat, chronically ill and feeling so damn out of Christmas celebrating. Miss family and so many memories of Christmas's before life fell apart. Such a kind and beautiful thing to post letting us feel theres a space to be seen and heard. Thank you. I wish life was not like this. Love to everyone here.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

omg my heart actually sighed when I read this post. Sat, chronically ill and feeling so damn out of Christmas celebrating. Miss family and so many memories of Christmas's before life fell apart. Such a kind and beautiful thing to post letting us feel theres a space to be seen and heard. Thank you. I wish life was not like this. Love to everyone here.

sending love right back. i'm so sorry you're dealing with all that, I can certainly relate

I too, wish life was better to us. be kind to you, as much as can be.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

shameless bump in case anyone needs to vent or talk in general.

sending hugs to everyone. be nice to yourselves and each other

 

[avalokitesvara]

just dipping in to say hello. today has been surreal. i feel it might well be my last christmas. i'm doing all the family traditions while visualising my method constantly. feeling mainly nothing and numbness. not even sad. this feels like a sign that i'm ready to go. i'm just not interested in anything or anyone. i don't care anymore. i wanna go. i don't want to do this over and over again for any more years. what's the point. i've had my fill. it's enough.