To ctb at home or away?

[45ready2ctb]

I'm ready to go. I take no joy in life. Debating whether to end it at home or fly away to somewhere beautiful and leave in a hotel or rented space. I am torn- to do so at home, I would be with my dogs so not technically alone...but I would leave my spouse with the memory of finding me that way. To go away would mean our home wouldn't be associated with my exit...but would make for a messier tying up loose ends (eg transporting remains). I haven't traveled much in this life, so the thought of one last plane trip makes me feel like it may be a good option- but then I worry about plans getting thwarted if family finds out my whereabouts before I'm able to ctb. Any advice?

 

[InkBlot]

I'm always pro somewhere nice. And if you don't do it, you end up with a new perspective and you got pampered and a bit of fun.

But going out with your doggos might be enjoyable too.

 

[bigj75]

I'm always pro somewhere nice. And if you don't do it, you end up with a new perspective and you got pampered and a bit of fun.

But going out with your doggos might be enjoyable too.

I like going to the hotel. I drink at the bar there and have a nice meal and relax.

 

[Roph]

I like going to the hotel. I drink at the bar there and have a nice meal and relax.

Agreed. If I depart via partial, a good meal and nice lodging are on the agenda.

 

[45ready2ctb]

I am leaning towards travel...and can disguise trip as business. Hmmm. Now where to go???

 

[BjartNO]

I'm ready to go. I take no joy in life. Debating whether to end it at home or fly away to somewhere beautiful and leave in a hotel or rented space. I am torn- to do so at home, I would be with my dogs so not technically alone...but I would leave my spouse with the memory of finding me that way. To go away would mean our home wouldn't be associated with my exit...but would make for a messier tying up loose ends (eg transporting remains). I haven't traveled much in this life, so the thought of one last plane trip makes me feel like it may be a good option- but then I worry about plans getting thwarted if family finds out my whereabouts before I'm able to ctb. Any advice?

You should not do it in the home. It is a much better solution for your spouse
Transporting remains is just going to be a few calls and signing some papers.
Selling the house and psychological effects of finding you will be much worse for her

 

[45ready2ctb]

You should not do it in the home. It is a much better solution for your spouse
Transporting remains is just going to be a few calls and signing some papers.
Selling the house and psychological effects of finding you will be much worse for her

Would you think differently if finder was male (I'm female)? I do worry about one of kids finding me..but I would schedule an email to go to him.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

Personally I'm looking into something like this :

https://partners.hoseasons.co.uk/hth/lodges/fishguard-bay-resort-fgua/carningli-lp14282

Enjoy my last few days getting drunk and listening to music before CTB

 

[45ready2ctb]

Personally I'm looking into something like this :

https://partners.hoseasons.co.uk/hth/lodges/fishguard-bay-resort-fgua/carningli-lp14282

Enjoy my last few days getting drunk and listening to music before CTB

NICE! I'm thinking of somewhere in US where weed is legal.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

NICE! I'm thinking of somewhere in US where weed is legal.

Sounds like a plan!

Naturally drugs will be involved for me, only way I manage to cope atm is with alcohol and drugs! Slowly turning into an alcoholic!

 

[ghostman]

I am planning on going to the forest to do partial hanging. I have already found location. I thought about using abandoned warehouse but i dont want to risk being found before its over. Also, i don't like hotels, i want to do it away and alone from civilisation.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I am leaning towards travel...and can disguise trip as business. Hmmm. Now where to go???

Some place with a vista , a beautiful view .

 

[QueenEtna]

Go away to a nice place, might as well if you're gonna do it right?

 

[BjartNO]

Would you think differently if finder was male (I'm female)?

No not at all

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

We have this dry riser room in my work. It's small and dirty as hell but it has a fixed ladder I could loop rope round for partial suspension. My only concern is my colleagues finding me.. But I don't know where else I could CTB

 

[weedoge]

Id definitely agree that away from home is the best idea if you don't live alone. I can't stand the thought of my family finding me at home when my mum plans to stay in this home for the rest of her life. I can't leave her with that traumatising image and probably force her to leave. That means me dying in a lonely unfamiliar place though.

Good luck op

 

[deflagrat]

I thought about finding a good place to ctb in the woods but let's be honest there isn't one, so nowadays I expect my parents to leave my rotten corpse be for a few days until they will "magically know something is up". I have no other choice because my method requires at least 2 days.

 

[weedoge]

I thought about finding a good place to ctb in the woods but let's be honest there isn't one, so nowadays I expect my parents to leave my rotten corpse be for a few days until they will "magically know something is up". I have no other choice because my method requires at least 2 days.

Be careful :(

 

[45ready2ctb]

I thought about finding a good place to ctb in the woods but let's be honest there isn't one, so nowadays I expect my parents to leave my rotten corpse be for a few days until they will "magically know something is up". I have no other choice because my method requires at least 2 days.

What's your method?

 

[406blue]

I'm ready to go. I take no joy in life. Debating whether to end it at home or fly away to somewhere beautiful and leave in a hotel or rented space. I am torn- to do so at home, I would be with my dogs so not technically alone...but I would leave my spouse with the memory of finding me that way. To go away would mean our home wouldn't be associated with my exit...but would make for a messier tying up loose ends (eg transporting remains). I haven't traveled much in this life, so the thought of one last plane trip makes me feel like it may be a good option- but then I worry about plans getting thwarted if family finds out my whereabouts before I'm able to ctb. Any advice?

Doing it somewhere beautiful would be nice, wouldn't it. I'm not sure you need a trip to a foreign country to achieve this, just somewhere that is close to your heart and where you have some empathy. For example, the woods where you took your dogs for walks, although i don't know your preferred method. Bringing a body back from a foreign country might involve lots of complications and expense unless you prepare your will to include being buried there and not repatriated. Your family will have to make the journey to your country of choice. I have thought about these things a lot and despite the attraction of taking a flight to india or vietnam, i feel i might as well do it fairly locally assuming i can be happy with the location. Renting a caravan or mobile home might be an option to not be disturbed. In the end, i tend to feel that once you get to the point of no return, you're not really too bothered, but it's good to minimise the effect on others.