To those here who are trapped in existence, I'm sorry

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm sorry, I really am. Recently, I've only been focused on myself being trapped in existence but then I remembered that I'm not the only one trapped in existence as there are others here who are also trapped in existence. There are others here who are miserable with life to where they want an earlier death but can't unfortunately achieve an earlier death because they can't access a suicide method. Of course, the reasons for somebody not being able to access a suicide method varies a lot between people but I know there are a few users here who want to ctb but can't.

This sort of pain really is immense because people like us have to accept being this state of limbo where we are miserable enough to want to die early but can't access a way to die early. It's just so unfair and all of our suffering could be prevented had pro lifers been compassionate enough to legalise euthanasia for us but, no, we live in a pro suffering society. Accepting that there is no solution to this problem really hurts. For me, this is my greatest pain ever and it causes me to be so scared and terrified of life. I have no idea if this applies to anybody else who are trapped here.

I know this post doesn't apply to everybody as a lot of people here can access a suicide method like SN or anything else but, for those who this post applies for, I truly am sorry and I hope you find peace soon. You deserve better, we all do. Once again, I'm so sorry...

 

[WearyWanderer]

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

I wake up every day and I feel like a hostage. To life, the world, to people. It's awful.

 

[ScarletTanager]

Accepting that life is not fair is part of life. If you can accept this premise perhaps you can move on to find peace within this existence. Society would not function if it were pro-suffering. Most people are not aware you are suffering likely, maybe if you reach out for help they will understand your predicament. Anyhow, I wish you peace and hope you find the fulfillment you seek in the here-and-now, in this lifetime. Good luck to you and yours!

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Accepting that life is not fair is part of life. If you can accept this premise perhaps you can move on to find peace within this existence.

You really think that a person like me who is suffering every day from things that don't cause others nearly as much suffering is unable to acknowledge that life isn't fair!? If I wasn't apathetic right now, I'd honestly feel insulted. Life isn't fair at all and that doesn't make me find peace within existence, it actually makes me find peace within non existence. How on earth can I be at peace with the fact that life isn't fair and some people suffer more than others? The fact that life isn't fair makes me want to not be a part of life.

Society would not function if it were pro-suffering.

I guess I should clarify that I'm using a different definition of the term pro suffering. When I say "pro suffering", I don't mean that people want to suffer beyond instrumental suffering as I know that they are suffering-avoidant when it comes to non instrumental suffering even if they aren't able to acknowledge that fact. What I mean by pro suffering is that people are okay with others suffering horrifically in existence just as long as they themselves aren't suffering horrifically. Additionally, even if somebody were to suffer horrifically, they would rather choose to suffer than to cease to exist which is also what I mean by pro suffering. There have been suicide attempts that failed with people ending up with permanent pain and their parents would rather have them live for as long as possible against their will than them dying peacefully. This is also what I mean by pro suffering. It's fucking sadistic.

Most people are not aware you are suffering likely, maybe if you reach out for help they will understand your predicament.

If I were to reach out to the average person, they wouldn't understand my predicament at all. When it comes to suffering, humans are only able to understand other people's suffering if they went through a similar sort of suffering themselves or if they've seen others suffer similarly. My suffering is unique and, in response to me trying to convey my suffering, I'd just get platitudes relating to existence when all I want is non existence. Hell, even the majority of people on this site aren't able to understand me, it's only around 3 to 5 users here who can and those users do understand my predicament. Everybody else will not.

Anyhow, I wish you peace and hope you find the fulfillment you seek in the here-and-now, in this lifetime. Good luck to you and yours!

There is no fulfillment that I can find within life. All I want is non existence, nothing else

 

[ScarletTanager]

Well, I'd like to apologize because I didn't intend to insult you. However, so many different scenarios and situations can occur during our lives where some people are not going to understand or go through the exact same situation to what another or other persons do, but still, would we each need to experience the exact same sadness or hurts in identical manner to be able to reach out and help someone else? Unlikely. No one is a clone of anyone else, we all live unique lives. Maybe you've run into a lot of people encouraging you only on their perspectives, what else can be expected, but usually they are well meaning, and what seem like empty platitudes is really a friend or relative just relating what has worked for themselves or their friends or somebody in their community. Applying advice that is closest in matching what you need and that could help you is key. Just keep an open mind when friends and relatives reach out. Maybe you will find peace in an unexpected way or place.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

We know that everything you say is from a viewpoint that you understand to be shared by most.

 

[divinemistress36]

Ya everything is pointless

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Ya everything is pointless

My username says it all

 

[ijustwishtodie]

We know that everything you say is from a viewpoint that you understand to be shared by most.

What viewpoint of mine are you referring to exactly?

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

What viewpoint of mine are you referring to exactly?

Being trapped in this life.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Being trapped in this life.

I don't think that many people are trapped in life. I acknowledge that my viewpoint is only held true by a minority amount of people even on here. I acknowledge that many people here are able to escape existence because they're privileged enough to access SN or some other method along with a place to do it without getting caught. My post is meant for the few people on this site who aren't privileged enough to access a suicide method