Venting Today<3 (Open Turkey Day Vent Thread)

[opheliaoveragain]

If you're alone or maybe with people who don't understand you today, I welcome anyone to use this thread to vent or talk about how they're feeling, not feeling, whatever comes up.

I'm alone today and while I don't think there's anything to be celebrating (considering) it is still triggering and I have been crying on and off feeling just mad alone and like a failure in life. It's just a day. This time of year is objectively shit and I just want anyone and everyone to know they are not alone and we can be here for each other.

Much love Sasu fam.

Xx

 

[helterskelter]

i like holidays a lot conceptually but i am always completely alone so it doesnt matter. at least winter is a pretty season to brood in.

 

[quietpill]

I've never been a holiday person, but it's especially hard this year. No friends to reach out to that aren't busy with friends they like more and/or their actual family. The stark reminder that I have no genuine connections or support systems, it is really hard to not feel like you'll never have what everyone else seems to so easily or naturally. I'm sorry you're alone today, and that it's so emotionally distressing. I think I have the blessing of total numbness for the moment, but I imagine it will degrade over the course of the day. Just trying to ignore it all and watch shows, pretend like my cat isn't my best friend ha ha even though she's the only thing offering any physical comfort.

 

[helterskelter]

I've never been a holiday person, but it's especially hard this year. No friends to reach out to that aren't busy with friends they like more and/or their actual family. The stark reminder that I have no genuine connections or support systems, it is really hard to not feel like you'll never have what everyone else seems to so easily or naturally. I'm sorry you're alone today, and that it's so emotionally distressing. I think I have the blessing of total numbness for the moment, but I imagine it will degrade over the course of the day. Just trying to ignore it all and watch shows, pretend like my cat isn't my best friend ha ha even though she's the only thing offering any physical comfort.

cats are family! i like lonely winters, its nice and cold and dark outside. the holiday season is really depressing but it feels kind of refreshing to be sad about something normal for once.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

The holidays are part of the reason I look forward to death. I have nothing here. I don't communicate with people, I don't talk unless I have to. I hate being around people, including family.

I just like being left alone, in the dark, with my thoughts.... and demons.

 

[quietpill]

cats are family! i like lonely winters, its nice and cold and dark outside. the holiday season is really depressing but it feels kind of refreshing to be sad about something normal for once.

Sad about something normal is a much more relieving thought than I would've guessed, I have to thank you for your perspective :)

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I've never been a holiday person, but it's especially hard this year. No friends to reach out to that aren't busy with friends they like more and/or their actual family. The stark reminder that I have no genuine connections or support systems, it is really hard to not feel like you'll never have what everyone else seems to so easily or naturally. I'm sorry you're alone today, and that it's so emotionally distressing. I think I have the blessing of total numbness for the moment, but I imagine it will degrade over the course of the day. Just trying to ignore it all and watch shows, pretend like my cat isn't my best friend ha ha even though she's the only thing offering any physical comfort.

hey big relate. im oscillating between numb and outbursts.

I completely identify with the feelings of feeling like you'll never have what people just have the natural luxury of IE friends and fam on days like today. I don't have those friends this year either, and as a literal orphan, there's no family to be had. It rough knowing that other get to at least be distracted by stupid strife or arguing about fucking potatos or something. I'm planning on edibles and weed and TV to get me through today.

even though we all know it's just a day, just a season, knowing we've gotten through it before, it doesn't take away from anything anyone is feeling today and I hope everyone can be kind to themselves as possible.

Sad about something normal is a much more relieving thought than I would've guessed, I have to thank you for your perspective :)

agree with this too. Thank you for the perspective for real. my Maine coone boy is sticking close to me today. cat fam

 

[opheliaoveragain]

utilizing this for myself too cuz I don't wanna spam the board.

may and joe and plato are all heavily on my mind today. i've cried a few times and talked to empty air. I just wish I could talk to them today.

 

[ForestGhost]

utilizing this for myself too cuz I don't wanna spam the board.

may and joe and plato are all heavily on my mind today. i've cried a few times and talked to empty air. I just wish I could talk to them today.

It's a bit heartbreaking to me how much of your tribe you've lost recently. They're all at peace now but... still. At the very least I think it's really a beautiful testament to your character how many times you've been entrusted with sharing or being witness to people's final moments. You're obviously someone so many deeply trust and care about.

I'll raise a glass of wine to you and we can be lonely together tonight.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

It's a bit heartbreaking to me how much of your tribe you've lost recently. They're all at peace now but... still. At the very least I think it's really a beautiful testament to your character how many times you've been entrusted with sharing or being witness to people's final moments. You're obviously someone so many deeply trust and care about.

I'll raise a glass of wine to you and we can be lonely together tonight.

thank you for your words. cheers.