KillingPain267
Enlightened
- Apr 15, 2024
- 1,494
Background:
My mental illnesses by order of severity:
I have depression: every day either I cry about my past better life or I am bored to death (no pun intended) and only think ctb is the solution because I'm just tired
I have general anxiety: I overthink, can't fall asleep, freak out about possible futures
I have social anxiety: I can barely pick up a phone without my heart racing, and meeting a new person, even just a therapist I overthink for days before and after the appointment
I have mild OCD: I wipe things many times, avoid touching public things, and when I do, I have twitchings and feel agitates
I tried Sertraline and Agomelatine. Neither worked.
My question is, if I tell them all this apart from ctb plans, what medication else could they give me? I am hoping for something against anxiety especially and extreme melancholic emotions so I can just cope the rest of my useless life. But what should I say for them to give that? I don't want to sound like a drug seeker, even though I have had addiction issues. But I don't actually want something addictive like benzos and get trapped with that shit.
This appointment is my last hope for recovery. If whatever they give doesn't work, well that's that. I just can't anymore. I feel abandoned by the medical industry anyway.
My mental illnesses by order of severity:
I have depression: every day either I cry about my past better life or I am bored to death (no pun intended) and only think ctb is the solution because I'm just tired
I have general anxiety: I overthink, can't fall asleep, freak out about possible futures
I have social anxiety: I can barely pick up a phone without my heart racing, and meeting a new person, even just a therapist I overthink for days before and after the appointment
I have mild OCD: I wipe things many times, avoid touching public things, and when I do, I have twitchings and feel agitates
I tried Sertraline and Agomelatine. Neither worked.
My question is, if I tell them all this apart from ctb plans, what medication else could they give me? I am hoping for something against anxiety especially and extreme melancholic emotions so I can just cope the rest of my useless life. But what should I say for them to give that? I don't want to sound like a drug seeker, even though I have had addiction issues. But I don't actually want something addictive like benzos and get trapped with that shit.
This appointment is my last hope for recovery. If whatever they give doesn't work, well that's that. I just can't anymore. I feel abandoned by the medical industry anyway.