Tonights my last night

[brokenpretzel]

Ive been thinking about ctb a lot for the past few years. Been going through a lot in many different aspects of life, but I think I've found out about a betrayal today that's just too much to take. I know that's very vague but it's hard to give a lot of detail. I have SN, acetaminophen/ibuprofen, and a shit ton of diazepam(valium). Going to have a final phone call with the person who betrayed me tonight and I will start the CTB process after. I feel so bad about the people I will be leaving behind but I truly think they will be better off without my pain as a burden, as it has been for the last few years. And it would only get worse if I pushed for longer. There's just only so much I can take.

This is my first post and I know idk anyone on here but I've been lurking for a while snd you guys have helped. Thanks everyone. Ill try to update this as the process goes on if possible.

 

[Freebandzgang]

 

[Halfhourdays]

This sounds too hasty.

 

[LonelyMe]

I don't recommend doing it because you got betrayed. Sending you hugs

 

[BeijaFlor]

 

[FishRain3469]

I'm sorry you are dealing with that, I'm similar... But mostly with resentments/ self hatred, acceptance, Life on life's terms... the list Goes on. =/

I wish you Nothing but the best. Thoughts and prayers. ♥

 

[strawberrydiequiri]

You didn't deserve this, I hope you'll be okay. Betrayal is debilitating

 

[J&L383]

Try to take a step back if you can. I understand what you're going through is really really tough. There are lots of people here that will listen to you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[unscrewedmoon999]

If you've gone through with it, I hope it was quick and painless. If you've changed your mind, we're all here for you. It's horrendous that someone would be so cruel and betray you like that.