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holyhorse

holyhorse

Member
Mar 31, 2024
37
I know that most people in here struggle to find SN. I can actually brag with the fact that I've found a website where I can legally buy chemically pure SN for a relatively cheap price. Yeah the SN itself costs nothing much but delivery... HOLY shit delivery costs a lot, like, 4 times of the SN price. Note that Im from a third world country and such prices seem way much higher to me and I'm also a student who is already trying to get through every goddamn day. My ctb date is getting closer and I fear that I wont be able to get myself SN (and other stuff, like antiemetics and benzos) before the due date. Welp, I guess the most peaceful CTB method is available only for premium class people🙂🙂 For fuck's sake I just want to leave this world as soon as possible
 
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darksouls

Experienced
May 10, 2025
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poverty is terrible
 
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s00ngone

s00ngone

All you can feel is the weather
Mar 21, 2025
80
Woof.
40 USD (not including benzos and antiemetics)
might seem a normal price but I really cant afford it
SN by itself costs around 7-8 dollars, delivery is hella expensive wtf
I'd be all over that if I could be sure it got here. DMC order is in customs hell.
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Hi
Mar 31, 2025
231
40 USD (not including benzos and antiemetics)
might seem a normal price but I really cant afford it
SN by itself costs around 7-8 dollars, delivery is hella expensive wtf
you got a job or some way to earn money?
 
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curiousbeing

I tried everything
Dec 18, 2022
224
Woof.

I'd be all over that if I could be sure it got here. DMC order is in customs hell.
I wish there was a way to order stuff without customs. I don't want to order and have it seized or cops visiting me. SN is banned here
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,997
I really understand just wanting to be gone, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I always wish there's the option to simply just cease existing in peace but anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
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RoadtoFreedomTwo

RoadtoFreedomTwo

Member
May 28, 2025
28
40 USD (not including benzos and antiemetics)
might seem a normal price but I really cant afford it
SN by itself costs around 7-8 dollars, delivery is hella expensive wtf
That's nothing homie. Can I Venmo you or something?
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Hi
Mar 31, 2025
231
nope, I dont even have time to work cuz I got lots of missed assignments/projects to submit by the end of the academic year which is after 2 weeks
This is really stupid but if you want to do it go for it. Theres these survey services where you do surveys/games for money. I've done a couple offers over a really big time perioid ofc it wasn't consistent or anything so I wouldn't know exactly how it all took but In total I made over $100 which I spent some of it and saved some. Some offers I got lucky with cuz they were easy and took like only 2 hours everyday for a 4 day period to complete.

Most game offers give you like 30 days to complete them so you can finish them out in your free time. Pick a reasonable offer like 20-40 max anything above is not that easy.

The payout options are a lot theres prepaid debit cards, paypal, amazon, and many more. What I do is just create a paypal and send the money there.
You could try swagbucks or inboxdollar both of these services are made by the same company I believe cuz they got the same website design.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,649
My ctb date is getting closer and I fear that I wont be able to get myself SN (and other stuff, like antiemetics and benzos) before the due date.
Is there some kind of significance to this upcoming "due date" that your ctb MUST occur on this date?
 
holyhorse

holyhorse

Member
Mar 31, 2024
37
This is really stupid but if you want to do it go for it. Theres these survey services where you do surveys/games for money. I've done a couple offers over a really big time perioid ofc it wasn't consistent or anything so I wouldn't know exactly how it all took but In total I made over $100 which I spent some of it and saved some. Some offers I got lucky with cuz they were easy and took like only 2 hours everyday for a 4 day period to complete.

Most game offers give you like 30 days to complete them so you can finish them out in your free time. Pick a reasonable offer like 20-40 max anything above is not that easy.

The payout options are a lot theres prepaid debit cards, paypal, amazon, and many more. What I do is just create a paypal and send the money there.
You could try swagbucks or inboxdollar both of these services are made by the same company I believe cuz they got the same website design.
Never heard of these services, seems like easy money to me 😅 so I hardly believe in that. I just checked both websites, and for inboxdollars, I got a message saying it's unavailable in my country. For swagbucks, I just can't open the site. But thank you for letting me know, this is actually helpful to know
Is there some kind of significance to this upcoming "due date" that your ctb MUST occur on this date?
Not really

I'm actually graduating from uni, and our graduation ceremony is on this date. I just think it's the perfect time because my friends become less cautious and are busy thinking about graduation and stuff, so they'll forget about me for a brief moment (all of them know about my suicidal tendencies). And, well, this is when my ctb will be unexpected😀, haha. Fuck this shit, I won't keep living this life
 
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idiotmother

Member
Mar 21, 2025
13
How did you find a reputable supplier? I've looked online but they only sell to businesses.
 
holyhorse

holyhorse

Member
Mar 31, 2024
37
How did you find a reputable supplier? I've looked online but they only sell to businesses.
Well, I found the website of a Russian company that sells all kinds of chemical compounds, like, legit stuff for research labs, schools, factories, and even individual buyers. Basically, it's a website for large companies and chemistry enthusiasts. Just saying in advance, they don't ship to Europe or the US, for reasons that are probably obvious
 
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idiotmother

Member
Mar 21, 2025
13
Well, I found the website of a Russian company that sells all kinds of chemical compounds, like, legit stuff for research labs, schools, factories, and even individual buyers. Basically, it's a website for large companies and chemistry enthusiasts. Just saying in advance, they don't ship to Europe or the US, for reasons that are probably obvious
Damn. Thanks for the info anyway.
 
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hadenoughscotland

Member
Jun 13, 2024
61
I know that most people in here struggle to find SN. I can actually brag with the fact that I've found a website where I can legally buy chemically pure SN for a relatively cheap price. Yeah the SN itself costs nothing much but delivery... HOLY shit delivery costs a lot, like, 4 times of the SN price. Note that Im from a third world country and such prices seem way much higher to me and I'm also a student who is already trying to get through every goddamn day. My ctb date is getting closer and I fear that I wont be able to get myself SN (and other stuff, like antiemetics and benzos) before the due date. Welp, I guess the most peaceful CTB method is available only for premium class people🙂🙂 For fuck's sake I just want to leave this world as soon as possible
I can help u if u can help me get some
 
lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
261
I thought i'm alone with this 🥺 it even feels like i'm a failure in this too because I can't even afford sn. it's such a tiny amount to others, but to me it's a huuge amount
and when i got a comment like "if someone really wants it they can buy sn"
it broke my heart. because I just can't... it's my money for food
 
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holyhorse

holyhorse

Member
Mar 31, 2024
37
I thought i'm alone with this 🥺 it even feels like i'm a failure in this too because I can't even afford sn. it's such a tiny amount to others, but to me it's a huuge amount
and when i got a comment like "if someone really wants it they can buy sn"
it broke my heart. because I just can't... it's my money for food
Agree!! I spend around $4 on food every day, it's a fixed amount I just can't do anything about. I've been trying to save at least something from that. It used to work before; I'd fast for a few days, but hey, at least I was saving money for something. Now it's impossible. I'm so drained, so exhausted, zero energy, fucking depressed and everything. I just can't pull those tricks on my body anymore. I crave food most of the time, especially with my fast metabolism. This sucks