Too scared to actually go through with it

[princess_fairy]

I was about to do shallow water blackout but then idk, maybe I didn't hyperventilate long enough or hard enough but I couldn't keep my face in there for even a few seconds before I got scared and took my head out. I know that things are going to get even worse for me and more hellish so why do I wait? I'm scared that the afterlife is going to be even more horrifying than my real life. I'm trying to CTB before my life becomes more of a living hell. How do I get over this fear of the afterlife being even worse or just the fear of death in general?

 

[ankawannadie]

I find that when you are pushed to the extreme then only you can overcome your SI. I still think there is a little bit of living left to do in your case. I wish you the best.

 

[SafferGuy]

How do I get over this fear of the afterlife being even worse or just the fear of death in general?

That used to be my fear... or having to come back and do this shitty life again...

 

[Hellis]

It's okay to fail, and swb is notoriously hard to do. Been in your shoes too, wouldn't even call it half passing it, hardly even an attempt. No shame in it, death doesn't need to be a speedrun

 

[kitkat9234]

I also fear that things will be worse if I'm successful. If that's even possible. Scared of the unknown is one of the reasons why I haven't tried again.