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- Jun 26, 2023
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about 7:30pm: I ingested a sip, not even a glass, of a bit of juice and about 20g SN.
The taste is so horrendous, I had to immediately cough and puke some up. No juice though, just spit.
7:40pm: I hope even just 2g of SN are in my body rn, the minimum lethal dose.
I truly hope I can die.
Wish me luck, and the strength to stomach some more sips, or IF I live, on another time with antiemetics.
My SN is in an airtight sealed bag.
It is from DMC.
(The taste is just a tiny bit salty, and more extremely chemical. Extremely disgusting. I'm sorry y'all)
7:45pm: Idk if its just my body or the anxiety, or hopefully the SN, but I have some tachycardia and I feel dizzy.
My vision is a tiny bit blurry.
Almost like the beginning of getting drunk? But a tiny bit.
Please, wish me luck. I wish to be on the other side soon.
7:52pm: I have somewhat strong tachycardia, extremely 'dizzy' (like I'm drunk or high, it feels nice), a bit forgetful.
I think it's working.
I hope. I pray.
8:02pm: I feel really slow and 'dumb', almost like being 'high'.
BTW! If I don't update here in a week (don't have SaSu on my phone, so laptop it is). I'm hopefully dead.
1:23am: I failed. I passed out and woke up in my own spit, my own puke.
I can feel my pulse in my head, taste the SN.
I am a failure.
How can I fail my 5th attempt?
Praying the 6th will be the last.
about 7:30pm: I ingested a sip, not even a glass, of a bit of juice and about 20g SN.
The taste is so horrendous, I had to immediately cough and puke some up. No juice though, just spit.
7:40pm: I hope even just 2g of SN are in my body rn, the minimum lethal dose.
I truly hope I can die.
Wish me luck, and the strength to stomach some more sips, or IF I live, on another time with antiemetics.
My SN is in an airtight sealed bag.
It is from DMC.
(The taste is just a tiny bit salty, and more extremely chemical. Extremely disgusting. I'm sorry y'all)
7:45pm: Idk if its just my body or the anxiety, or hopefully the SN, but I have some tachycardia and I feel dizzy.
My vision is a tiny bit blurry.
Almost like the beginning of getting drunk? But a tiny bit.
Please, wish me luck. I wish to be on the other side soon.
7:52pm: I have somewhat strong tachycardia, extremely 'dizzy' (like I'm drunk or high, it feels nice), a bit forgetful.
I think it's working.
I hope. I pray.
8:02pm: I feel really slow and 'dumb', almost like being 'high'.
BTW! If I don't update here in a week (don't have SaSu on my phone, so laptop it is). I'm hopefully dead.
1:23am: I failed. I passed out and woke up in my own spit, my own puke.
I can feel my pulse in my head, taste the SN.
I am a failure.
How can I fail my 5th attempt?
Praying the 6th will be the last.
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