Venting Torture chamber

[SilentSadness]

That's all this is, just a horrific never ending torture chamber. It's so unlucky that I'm alive and suffering, there's nothing I can do about it no matter how much I wait, it's a really dark and twisted story. Everyone wants it to continue, every day is an uphill struggle fighting the obstacles others have worked so tirelessly to create. Just counting down the eons until I find a reliable method. There's no relief or comfort, this society couldn't care less about suffering individuals. I know my struggles don't change anything, I'm like a beached whale.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also find it so dreadful how I'm still suffering in this cruel, undesirable existence, all I wish for is the option to just never wake again but I really wish I never existed at all, it's truly so horrible to me how suicide isn't accepted as a valid option even know people suffer so immensely.

 

[SilentSadness]

It's so horrible to be here, there really is no relief at all. Others are cruel to the point that it's worse than the cruelty of existing here, suffering every waking moment. It will never change, it will stay like this forever.

 

[SilentSadness]

This world is just getting worse, there's nothing of value here and it's such a chore to keep on living. No one benefits from this pointless slavery, it's just tiring and painful. I really hate being here, I especially hate the other people in this world.

 

[beyondeternal]

May you find your eternal peace.

Sorry that I can't say anything more...

 

[SilentSadness]

I really wish I could be at peace instead of trapped in living, it's such tiring, exhausting slavery to be here. It'd be foolish to expect life to stay the same when it keeps getting worse and more painful. What a tragedy, the only constant is that no one cares. That you can be sure of.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I really wish I could be at peace instead of trapped in living, it's such tiring, exhausting slavery to be here. It'd be foolish to expect life to stay the same when it keeps getting worse and more painful. What a tragedy, the only constant is that no one cares. That you can be sure of.

Dude I can honestly say I've come really far and I went from being a piece of shit in my life to being a very giving person and I have to say that you're completely right... No one really cares, they only love you when it's convenient for them.

Ironically the less you care about them the more they adore you. I will never understand this toxic symbiosis however I refuse to ever again contribute to the unhappiness of the people I love.
I may not be able to fix anyone else's problems including my own, but I can choose to stop playing this wicked game. Considerate my way of being a conscientious objector.

 

[SilentSadness]

Sadly it's near impossible to find a companion in this world, it's a very bleak alone experience. It's years of living and waiting and getting nothing in return, this world gives nothing back.

 

[SilentSadness]

I really cannot stand this world, it's filled with the worst possible people and has such cruelty for absolutely no reason. This world serves absolutely no purpose, it's such a repulsive hellscape with zero redeeming qualities. Every day is such pain and suffering, I wish I was able to kill myself sooner, I hate people so much.

 

[agony1996]

That's all this is, just a horrific never ending torture chamber. It's so unlucky that I'm alive and suffering, there's nothing I can do about it no matter how much I wait, it's a really dark and twisted story. Everyone wants it to continue, every day is an uphill struggle fighting the obstacles others have worked so tirelessly to create. Just counting down the eons until I find a reliable method. There's no relief or comfort, this society couldn't care less about suffering individuals. I know my struggles don't change anything, I'm like a beached whale.

I couldn't agree with you more there's just pain and suffering it's agonizing to be alive and I have no more fight left in me.
You're not alone

 

[Surai]

It really is and you will find ego will create horrible mental anguish between people and its a curse that drives humans self worth. But those who kill ego whether through other means can see how little it is worth and how happier social life becomes

 

[opheliaoveragain]

This world is just getting worse, there's nothing of value here and it's such a chore to keep on living. No one benefits from this pointless slavery, it's just tiring and painful. I really hate being here, I especially hate the other people in this world.

This is one of my big feelings too. It's just getting worse. It's not going to get better for our species or our planet. Late stage capitalism is slavery, living is slavery. The ones in power just want to see us suffer.

 

[SilentSadness]

I hate humans so much. It's such a horrible experience to have to live alongside them. They always only care about themselves and enjoy hurting others. Humans are such a disgusting species. They have such a big ego and will do anything to justify their actions. So many problems are caused by sadistic actions. It's true that people don't care, not one bit. People just go out of their way to hurt me. There's no relief.

 

[SilentSadness]

People who help others are belittled and punished, people who harm others are praised and rewarded. That's the main difference between fiction and reality.

 

[SilentSadness]

My goodness I hate humans. They only push others down, they are so narcissistic they could be beating someone up while complaining about bullying. It's always a bad idea to interact with others, it's dangerous and can lead to terrible consequences if you don't conform to their contradictory rules. Yes they are very tolerant until they don't like you, then they will be cruel without remorse and get lots and lots of support. No one even cares about helping anyone, which is strange considering everyone says it's their number 1 priority. I think humans are no better than monkeys, the only way to live is in constant fear, you can't even express your own misery without being attacked and berated. Such a pointless existence, it's just people looking for excuses to hurt others. Scream and shout all you want but that's the reality, it simply doesn't change. The reason it's so bad is because of humans, they really can't be trusted and keep continuing this cycle and teaching their children how to harm others. What's even the point, this must all be a sick joke, how and why did I get dragged into this mess.

 

[SilentSadness]

Stuck in a pit of animals, humans are vultures honestly. They just repeat what others say and take any opportunity to perform the most selfish possible action. Such a stupid game, it's laughable that so many people actually think this world is "right" or "good". Those people must not have eyes, how tragic. All this suffering is for nothing, I never asked for it and no, suffering doesn't "build character" and it's not "necessary", that's just mental gymnastics. Even after all of these problems are caused by others, they still can't help themselves from rationalising their cruelty. No one cares after all, this is like Saw marketed as team sports.

 

[thenorthern]

Stuck in a pit of animals, humans are vultures honestly. They just repeat what others say and take any opportunity to perform the most selfish possible action. Such a stupid game, it's laughable that so many people actually think this world is "right" or "good". Those people must not have eyes, how tragic. All this suffering is for nothing, I never asked for it and no, suffering doesn't "build character" and it's not "necessary", that's just mental gymnastics. Even after all of these problems are caused by others, they still can't help themselves from rationalising their cruelty. No one cares after all, this is like Saw marketed as team sports.

So sorry man :( if you need to talk hit me up.

 

[SilentSadness]

So frustrated at being continuously provoked, people hurt and anger me as much as possible in order to use my reactions against me, even people who accuse others. Seriously, what a waste of time. So many humans' only purpose is to do as much damage as they can to others, it's all a sick game for no reason at all. Of course there's so much suffering when that's what people want on others. A lot of people get mildly happy when they crush others so that's what they spend all their time doing. They think "I can't use them so I'll hurt them so much they cry". Humans are such an evil species, they're no better than predators who eat other animals.

 

[SilentSadness]

It's been so many years but people never change, they are always as cruel as when they started. Most people are very happy to use others and pretend they are the moral ones, it must be a lot easier than helping anyone. Sadly despite how much people preach about helping people they really couldn't be more selfish, it's all about pulling yourself up and pushing others down. It's all about getting the material benefits of being mean and the social benefits of pretending to be nice. As always, I can't stand being alive in this animal enclosure.

 

[SilentSadness]

Living is literally torture, every day is completely pain and suffering, there is nothing possibly worse. Nothing improves or changes, it keeps getting worse, every time I correctly predict the future but I can't do anything about it. Seriously it's such a stressful nightmare, there is absolutely no benefit or desire to stay here, escaping this reality would be priceless. It's insane that life can even get this bad, I suppose humans are just destined for intense suffering. And it always shocks me to hear about the lives of others, usually it's so much worse than mine and yet for me life is infinitely undesirable and burdensome. So many obligations, so much mistreatment, so little time. There isn't even time to lay down and close my eyes.

 

[SilentSadness]

I really do hate humans so much, having to interact with these dogs is beyond frustrating. Human dogs never think for themselves or have any compassion for others, they just do the wrong thing until the very end. An unfathomable amount of pain and suffering is directly caused by humans who think they're right, it's so pathetic and disgusting. The human race is a joke and a great evil.
Why is it that nothing goes right and everything gets worse, it is difficult to express just how regularly I am surprised by how much worse it gets. The only constant is that everyone is horrific and wishes intense pain upon others, for no reason honestly. I think it's something in the human brain that causes people to enjoy hurting others without purpose.

 

[Csmith8827]

Living is literally torture, every day is completely pain and suffering, there is nothing possibly worse. Nothing improves or changes, it keeps getting worse, every time I correctly predict the future but I can't do anything about it. Seriously it's such a stressful nightmare, there is absolutely no benefit or desire to stay here, escaping this reality would be priceless. It's insane that life can even get this bad, I suppose humans are just destined for intense suffering. And it always shocks me to hear about the lives of others, usually it's so much worse than mine and yet for me life is infinitely undesirable and burdensome. So many obligations, so much mistreatment, so little time. There isn't even time to lay down and close my eyes.

Dude I just got through suffering from Insomnia. Voices have been tormenting me and still are. They wouldn't let me sleep. I went and got everclear and started taking sleeping pills and then immediately went to the health department and got on trazodone. Like...you can fight back...it does get better..."I reached for the stars on my tippie toes" and things miraculously got better. Theres something out there, some sort of higher power just search for it and try to do the right thing. There is love and mercy there...like...it's so hard to explain bro. Just do the best you can. Try to be a good person and go the way you think you should go. If it's not what other people think, then fuck it, but you have to take care of yourself at the end of the day and look for a way to make that possible.

I really do hate humans so much, having to interact with these dogs is beyond frustrating. Human dogs never think for themselves or have any compassion for others, they just do the wrong thing until the very end. An unfathomable amount of pain and suffering is directly caused by humans who think they're right, it's so pathetic and disgusting. The human race is a joke and a great evil.
Why is it that nothing goes right and everything gets worse, it is difficult to express just how regularly I am surprised by how much worse it gets. The only constant is that everyone is horrific and wishes intense pain upon others, for no reason honestly. I think it's something in the human brain that causes people to enjoy hurting others without purpose.

Dude i love you and I've talked to you in PM's about your pfp and how i like it etc...but please don't refer to humans as dogs. There HUMAN BEINGS. And honestly I don't understand that putdown...dogs are animals...humans aren't animals...and most dogs...not all of them...but some of them are NICE ANIMALS. So to like try to put human beings down and say they're these animals or whatever...dude you're wrong. We have brains, and dreams, and so much more than an animal. Feelings, etc...I'm just tired of people saying that people are dogs when in reality they're fucking people. Just please grow up and don't call humans dogs and I realize you're probably going through shit...hell I am...but like...that's life for now i guess. Hurt people hurt people. Or because people are selfish and evil and just wrong altogether. But the point is to be above those people and attain or achieve some sort of victory out of being good. I dunno. My blessing supposedly came from God but i've stabbed him in the back 1000 times and massacred him etc, but like He/She can't do anything because supposedly there beautiful and like...so I don't know..play the game...just try to do something good. Listen to your heart bro. I'm trying to leave too...but i'm swift/quick about it. I don't play games.

 

[SilentSadness]

Dude I just got through suffering from Insomnia. Voices have been tormenting me and still are. They wouldn't let me sleep. I went and got everclear and started taking sleeping pills and then immediately went to the health department and got on trazodone. Like...you can fight back...it does get better..."I reached for the stars on my tippie toes" and things miraculously got better. Theres something out there, some sort of higher power just search for it and try to do the right thing. There is love and mercy there...like...it's so hard to explain bro. Just do the best you can. Try to be a good person and go the way you think you should go. If it's not what other people think, then fuck it, but you have to take care of yourself at the end of the day and look for a way to make that possible.

Dude i love you and I've talked to you in PM's about your pfp and how i like it etc...but please don't refer to humans as dogs. There HUMAN BEINGS. And honestly I don't understand that putdown...dogs are animals...humans aren't animals...and most dogs...not all of them...but some of them are NICE ANIMALS. So to like try to put human beings down and say they're these animals or whatever...dude you're wrong. We have brains, and dreams, and so much more than an animal. Feelings, etc...I'm just tired of people saying that people are dogs when in reality they're fucking people. Just please grow up and don't call humans dogs and I realize you're probably going through shit...hell I am...but like...that's life for now i guess. Hurt people hurt people. Or because people are selfish and evil and just wrong altogether. But the point is to be above those people and attain or achieve some sort of victory out of being good. I dunno. My blessing supposedly came from God but i've stabbed him in the back 1000 times and massacred him etc, but like He/She can't do anything because supposedly there beautiful and like...so I don't know..play the game...just try to do something good. Listen to your heart bro. I'm trying to leave too...but i'm swift/quick about it. I don't play games.

It really is just a despairful continued experience for me. No, it doesn't get better, not for me. A lot of humans suffer greatly at the hands of others, but the moment they're in the position of power, they abuse it like dogs. Most people don't know how to do the right thing, they just follow the crowd and eat each other alive. Humans should know better, because they are not dogs, but they act like dogs. It's pointless to suggest there is "love out there" to someone in my position, life is just a game of chance and some people have to lose and burn. My "heart" yearns for an escape and peace from the stressful burden. I'm simply waiting for my obligations to end so that I can finally die, likely by SN if available at the time. Also, I try to be kind to others, but it makes little difference anyway, I have no power or control and others will suffer regardless. That is the sad state of affairs we are surrounded by.

 

[persuasion]

Try 'The conspiracy Against the Human Race' by Thomas Ligotti. You will find it online.

 

[SilentSadness]

One thing to remember is it always always gets worse, it can be easy to forget but you get burned if you do even for one moment. There is always something bad waiting around the corner, there is no hope at all, optimism is completely futile. There is always a tragic event on the horizon, there is always someone worse off than you, there is always someone who wants you to suffer out of narcissism or spite. This planet is really just a kennel for the human race. There's so many traps trying to keep me here, forcing me to stay alive and endure this hell forever. Living is a dreadful curse that no one could deserve, it has created so many problems. It's a Pandora's box that can never be closed.

 

[SilentSadness]

Life is suffering from start to finish, for some people it's dreary and for others it's unimaginably horrific. The constant is that living is always a net negative, it's obviously a huge gamble where all the odds are against you. Society is filled with spiteful, repulsive sociopaths who enjoy causing others to suffer. Humans will never learn from their mistakes, they will continue to cause suffering until the end of the human race. They will never accept the very real problems present in this world. No one could design such a hopeless predicament, it really is hell.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I agree so much, life really is like a torture chamber. I can only be freed from this torture once I'm dead. Until then, I'm unfortunately forced to suffer. Only death can free me but unfortunately humans have made it so difficult to die. Your vents here are so accurate and relatable. I hope you find peace soon from this hellish existence.

 

[SilentSadness]

This world is hell, only suffering, completely negative, humans are repulsive, I hate being here, I hate being around those animals, such stupidity, no one cares about others, this is cruelty, no one accepts blame, no one wants to help, throw others down and push yourself up, hurt others deliberately, look down on others at every turn, gaslight, lie, take control, repeat the cycle, prevent change and keep it the same, avoid solutions, avoid justice at all costs, tear down others, open wounds, rub in salt, make sure they can never recover. Prioritise yourself, never share, ignore reality, ignore people in need, ensure the world remains hell. Make sure nothing is left uncorrupted by greed. Prolong the suffering of the physically injured. Sabotage attempts to help, cover up the truth, live how you would never be treated. Keep it going eternally, the wheel of suffering must continue forevermore.