aipuweth
a loser to and fro
- Aug 17, 2024
- 61
I wrote toxic but actually I hate all of these masculine things as a male. I don't think I'd be a good boyfriend, husband or dad. I'm naturally attracted to girls but I don't want to, because I think most of them wants masculine man. I wish I was born a girl, but yeah it's too late now. I know it wouldn't change anything that much, I mean I would be still depressed and suicidal as hell. But at least I would die in a body that I want. And yeah I'm living in a bad country for this, because people are mostly conservative, including my family. I don't want to gain muscles, I don't want body hairs and I hate that 6ft thing. I'm so unlucky at everything. Even if the god exists, I don't care about going to hell anymore. Just how can I resist all of these pain anymore? I want to blow my brains out. And I don't care who'll be sad, I didn't ask to born in this disgusting place. I hate world. Maybe, just maybe I'll born as a girl or a cat in my next life. But I still prefer not to exist.
