Discussion train suicide

[citadelofme]

i know that it is selfish to want to be hit by a train, i know that it can cause trauma to other people. there are not many ways i can think of to ctb in australia (especially since i am in perth which is mostly isolated from the most popular parts of australia)

SN seems impossible to get my hands on, as well as me being unemployed so definutely not enough money to be able to afford everything id need. i have no access to any guns, hanging myself seems too slow and painful. i am scared of failing and being put in a psych ward if i overdose and then fail. jumping from a high place seems like there is too much of a chance of me failing and being permanently paralysed and then life would be a million times more shitty than it already is. slitting my wrists seems like too high of a chance of failure. if anyone even suspects me being suicidal i will probably be sent to a psych ward immediately, i have beeing cutting and burning myself since i was 9 and everyone knows that so i am constantly being treated like i am "sick" and they are constantly watching out for me.

there are train tracks within walking distance of me, they are almost completely uncovered so it would be pretty easy to walk in front of a train or lay down on the tracks. i assume that i am less likely to die if i walk in front of the train near the station as the train will slow down and there will be lots of people around.

there are parts in the middleish of the tracks where i can climb over a pretty short fence (probably like double my height but i would still be able to climb over it pretty easily) i have not checked if there are employees or anyone who would catch me climbing the fence but i will check the next time im near the tracks. the side that i can climb over is hidden by trees and people in the houses near the tracks would not be able to see me. if im in the middleish of the tracks the train will be going its fastest im assuming (online it says the top speed of the train im looking for is around 110 km/h).

i do not know if that will be enough to kill me, hard to find stuff online as it seems as google is trying to keep me alive haha.

i wonder if it is more effective to walk in front of the train or lay down on the tracks, i fear that if i lay down on the tracks it would be too obvious and too much of a risk of being caught. ive heard jumping in front of the train is less effective.

i will try and find more stuff about the train i am hoping to be hit by, i am planning to die before 2026/2027 so i guess i have a while im just trying to find the most effective way to die.

 

[lebrodude]

A train going at that speed is as good as guaranteed to kill you as you can get with train suicide afaik.
Reason I'd never choose this method is I'd never want to traumatise the driver however I get people get desperate.

Plus surviving that method isn't worth the risk either tbh.

Good luck with whatever you choose to do.

 

[annen]

It's not just the traumatizing, but think about your last act being making everyone late to where they are going, all the hate you'll get (deserved or not, I'm not judging). In the end, it's up to you of course but seeking a better way for a while, continuing the misery to spare others one, doesn't sound too bad, does it?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find what you are searching for, it just feels so cruel to me how painless, guaranteed methods are made inaccessible and instead there is all this suffering, trying to die leading to way worse agony is what I fear as well but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[citadelofme]

I hope that you find what you are searching for, it just feels so cruel to me how painless, guaranteed methods are made inaccessible and instead there is all this suffering, trying to die leading to way worse agony is what I fear as well but anyway I wish you the best.

i agree, i wish there was an easy painless way to go that wouldnt traumatize anyone. nobody else would be hurt if they would just let me die easily

It's not just the traumatizing, but think about your last act being making everyone late to where they are going, all the hate you'll get (deserved or not, I'm not judging). In the end, it's up to you of course but seeking a better way for a while, continuing the misery to spare others one, doesn't sound too bad, does it?

most people hate me either way, it sounds selfish but i really dont care if i traumatise other people when i die, i just hope that one day there is an accessible, guarenteed way to die so that people wont have to traumatise others just to leave this life

 

[NegevChina]

The tracks connecting city's near my city are all protected by this fence but it is unclaimable due to the spaces being to small to put a shoe through. I can use a ladder though it would be to risky and I might break a leg and fail my attempt. So I'm considering jumping from a building instead.

 

[Unspoken7612]

It sounds like you have put a lot of thought into this.

I have too, and I wouldn't feel comfortable giving advice - but our thoughts are very similar.

What I will say is to make sure you are identifiable. I feel comfortable saying this because it isn't giving advice on making the suicide more likely to succeed, only on how to be considerate to others. Leave a bag by the side of the tracks containing a form of ID and a note, in which, among other things, you should reassure the driver that you intended to commit suicide, that you had a settled desire (it wasn't impulsive), and that you're sorry for the impact this might have had. Also include contact details for your family, whoever that may be (if you're not close with your birth family then it can be a found family).

 

[lastboyscout]

i agree, i wish there was an easy painless way to go that wouldnt traumatize anyone. nobody else would be hurt if they would just let me die easily

most people hate me either way, it sounds selfish but i really dont care if i traumatise other people when i die, i just hope that one day there is an accessible, guarenteed way to die so that people wont have to traumatise others just to leave this life

Between train or jumping i dont see whats better or worse.
Train can traumatize driver and make people late wherever they were going, Jumping can hit a person or damage a car passing by
On both there is a high level of violence.. taking that final step sure is no easy peasy.... at least for me

One thing i am sure, it aint fair a World that instead of letting people get out of it with dignity , leaves them with no much better options than having to smash their bodies if they want to stop suffering ... or instead searching metoclopramide for all eternity

 

[Coringa]

Train is very difficult because of the SI which will be huge.

 

[citadelofme]

Train is very difficult because of the SI which will be huge.

how will the SI stop me? SI is survival instinct right? but survival instinct wont stop the train from killing me?

 

[TimetoGo!]

how will the SI stop me? SI is survival instinct right? but survival instinct wont stop the train from killing me?

Walk down to the tracks and stand there, observe a train going by and just picture yourself actually walking onto those tracks…….its the hardest thing a human can do. I've been there a few times and struggled to do it

 

[lastboyscout]

how will the SI stop me? SI is survival instinct right? but survival instinct wont stop the train from killing me?

maybe can try to prevent you from crossing into the front of the train.. Using that method i would probably park the car next to a railroad entrance and when i see the train coming would cross to the other side walking normally (no rush and neither slow) and make to be on the middle of the line at same time the train gets there

This method requires brave personality plus 2 grams of potent white powder (considered a luxury in the protocol but it helps)

 

[DiniMom]

Walk down to the tracks and stand there, observe a train going by and just picture yourself actually walking onto those tracks…….its the hardest thing a human can do. I've been there a few times and struggled to do it

I feel the same, I layed down there but then stood up again. The problem is that SN is very expensive and I don't want to wait for too long, I prefered to just have the courage to go through with it

 

[Darlington]

I have just made a post about this, this thread came up as the next recommendation. I would want you to read my post first

Someone jumped in front of my train on Saturday

Sorry if this is not fitting, this is my first post as a long time lurker. Hello, to introduce I work as a conductor for a high speed operator in the uk. I've only been qualified for about 4 weeks. On Saturday a man jumped in front of my train at a local station aproaching a major city...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Amarajoy]

Between train or jumping i dont see whats better or worse.
Train can traumatize driver and make people late wherever they were going, Jumping can hit a person or damage a car passing by
On both there is a high level of violence.. taking that final step sure is no easy peasy.... at least for me

One thing i am sure, it aint fair a World that instead of letting people get out of it with dignity , leaves them with no much better options than having to smash their bodies if they want to stop suffering ... or instead searching metoclopramide for all eternity

Technically, anything can traumatize others. Someone has to discover your body. Heck, I'm traumatized just reading about a person I briefly encountered on here having succeeded at ctb. This is an inherently traumatizing act. It's really unavoidable. Though I understand your sentiment and I am obviously not encouraging people to find extensively traumatizing exits.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I will never understand the vitriol that the train method gets. This is just a consequence of people being so anti suicide. They forced people into doing brutal methods like this in the first place so traumatising them is just a consequence of their own actions. You even admit that you wouldn't ctb this way if you could access euthanasia. Once again, people brought themselves into this by being anti suicide so this is just fair game. I hope you find peace soon from this shitty existence

 

[maniac116]

Trauma is what brings many people to this website. Please don't ctb in a way that exposes unsuspecting innocent people including children to the mess that will be left from your choices.
That's just not right. Please reconsider your method.
There's a train employee on this site that recently experience that trauma & is having a very difficult time getting past it. People can't unsee things like that

 

[citadelofme]

Trauma is what brings many people to this website. Please don't ctb in a way that exposes unsuspecting innocent people including children to the mess that will be left from your choices.
That's just not right. Please reconsider your method.
There's a train employee on this site that recently experience that trauma & is having a very difficult time getting past it. People can't unsee things like that

i have been thinking about suicide for over 6 years, every method i can think of is too hard/painful/slow. i want an easy way to go, either quick enough to not feel much or painless. suicide by train seems quick enough and a pretty high success rate. if you can tell me a way to kill myself that wont affect anyone else i will gladly listen, i do not wish to harm or affect anyone else with my death. i wish there were easier ways to go.

 

[darkside1970]

A train going at that speed is as good as guaranteed to kill you as you can get with train suicide afaik.
Reason I'd never choose this method is I'd never want to traumatise the driver however I get people get desperate.

Plus surviving that method isn't worth the risk either tbh.

Good luck with whatever you choose to do.

Without doubt, that choosing train/truck method causes immense trauma and suffering to those directly (drivers) and indirectly connected to such. Perhaps it is chosen as you don't have access to drugs, weapons , nor the ability to follow through other methods to end one's life. I see such as not being solely connected to one's financial situation, as there are people from all backgrounds whom complete actions to end their life, no matter what their background is. Nevertheless, there is significant statistical data which will demonstrate whom is more vulnerable, and as such hard to argue for majority of attempts and outcomes whom is represented more than others.
Assisted choice is progressing, and this will adapt as society evolves. The ongoing growth of our population like so many things , will see such directives being available (and accepted) evolving beyond the mainly elderly, those with health and quality of life where death is imminent- eg. cancers, neurological disorders and diseases etc.