theconductor25
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- Sep 7, 2024
- 27
So, I pretty much have everything I need to ctb, but I just can't seem to actually go through with it. I originally planned to ctb by November 4th, but that day came and went. Honestly, I wish I was religious and believed in the afterlife or reincarnation because that would make it so much easier to ctb in my opinion. The permanence of death scares me. The fact that this is the only life I'll get and that death means the complete end to this life is hard to come to terms with. There's also the fact that there are certain things in my life that I don't want to give up, even though the bad things definitely outweighs the good. Anyways, just needed to vent a little bit and curious if anyone else is going through this sort of thing too?