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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,073
I have made the decision to try to live and make my life better, I do not rule out CTB in the future, I just want to exhaust all possibilities of being happy.

It's costing me a lot and I have relapses, but I think I can try, after all I lose nothing for trying.
 
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whatever1111

Student
Feb 16, 2019
195
best of luck to you
 
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Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
I have made the decision to try to live and make my life better, I do not rule out CTB in the future, I just want to exhaust all possibilities of being happy.

It's costing me a lot and I have relapses, but I think I can try, after all I lose nothing for trying.
Good luck on your journey friend, I hope light will shine in you and you can find what you are looking for.
DBD
 
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Good luck to you!
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,073
Thank you all.
 
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Memento Mori

Memento Mori

shambling garbage
Jan 24, 2019
573
i feel the exact opposite these days, want to end it tonight...guess i will fail and make everything worse. but i'm happy that you found some energy for this and i wish you the best in finding happiness in this world that outweighs the bad shit. peace
 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
i feel the exact opposite these days, want to end it tonight...guess i will fail and make everything worse. but i'm happy that you found some energy for this and i wish you the best in finding happiness in this world that outweighs the bad shit. peace
Same man. I' mthinking about ending ti tonight but I know I will chicken out like I always do.
 
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elizabeth.luck

elizabeth.luck

Eliminate your map.
Mar 10, 2019
124
That's great news! Keep us posted.
 
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time2go

Student
Mar 5, 2019
126
Good luck, I really hope everything works out!
 
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15dec

15dec

ember in the dark
Dec 7, 2018
1,550
Good luck :) I hope everything turns out well for you
 
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Donewith_

Elementalist
Sep 28, 2018
876
You have made a good choice.. hope you do better at life and may you find what you want to .
wish you the best
 
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21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
I'm doing the same - I hope we both succeed!
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
Best of luck Eren. I really hope you can find something worth living for. Hope you get to see some cool anime series in the near future to escape from the madness of life atleast once in a while.
 
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Jen Erik

Jen Erik

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Oct 12, 2018
637
Wish you the best, Eren
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
I have made the decision to try to live and make my life better, I do not rule out CTB in the future, I just want to exhaust all possibilities of being happy.

It's costing me a lot and I have relapses, but I think I can try, after all I lose nothing for trying.
I fucking love seeing recovery on this site, in my head, as soon as I saw this I went ayyy and let out a grin. You're right. Try your damned hardest. I wish you nothing but peace. As per my future tattoo "happiness looks gorgeous on you" :happy:
 
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ThinkingAboutThis

Student
Jan 7, 2019
142
Best of luck, Eren!
 
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1964dodge

Student
Sep 19, 2018
189
like you said ctb is always an option as long as you're alive. i'm trying to hang on also, I get close sometimes but I always try to live and enjoy life the best I can. if you can get some happiness and a decent quality of life it will all work out good for you. keep on trying I hope things will go well for you, good choice
 
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GeorgeJL

GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
1,621
I have made the decision to try to live and make my life better, I do not rule out CTB in the future, I just want to exhaust all possibilities of being happy.

It's costing me a lot and I have relapses, but I think I can try, after all I lose nothing for trying.
Check out Jordan Peterson and buy his self authoring program

This program has helped many men get their shit together.

And buy some psychedelics off of Dream Marketplace to get in touch with yourself at a deep level.
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,073
thanks to everyone! :smiling:
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,073
I know it's only been a month, but I'm really getting mentally worse, I really do not want to live anymore.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,883
Ugh, I'm sorry to hear that @Eren and it certainly can happen (I've experienced relapses many times, especially when things are out of my control and aren't my fault). I hope you are able to find peace in whatever decision you come to, whether it is to attempt recovery again in the future or ctb'ing.
 
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Davy

Davy

Have a great day!
Mar 24, 2019
144
I am glad that you made a conscious attempt to try help yourself one month ago, even though things are not so looking great for you at the moment. It's not an easy thing.
If you keep trying maybe one day your bad feelings, or lack of feeling, will fade and be replaced by something better :wink:
 
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housecat

Member
Apr 5, 2019
86
It's unfortunate that choosing life can be a near constant struggle. I am trying to aim for happiness, but sometimes it all ends up feeling so hopeless and pointless, and I'm conerned that it will only get harder as time moves forward. Currently, I think I have shed the suicidal urges for now, and I have some vague semblance of optimism, but I suspect those feelings will be back eventually. I intend to push on unless I feel 100% sure for a couple of months and nothing helps. I hope you can push on through this and come to find a clearing of peace ahead, but it's absolutely understandable to not want to endure life any longer.
 
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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
Just try to take things one day at a time. You don't have to rush into it, since the option is always there.
 
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HelensNepenthe

HelensNepenthe

Thoughtful poster
Jan 17, 2019
835
I know it's only been a month, but I'm really getting mentally worse, I really do not want to live anymore.
talk to me on discord
 
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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
Just try to take things one day at a time. You don't have to rush into it, since the option is always there.

I realize that came across sounding like an empty platitude. Good luck to you with whatever you decide.
 
Divine Trinity

Divine Trinity

Pugna Vigil
Mar 20, 2019
310
I think seeking happiness sets many up for failure, akin to chasing the end of a rainbow. Many purposes are needed to live a satisfactory life, and the means to achieve them. Otherwise depression and fustration with life seems natural.

Of course there's tons of money to be made telling people the opposite, and how 1/2 teaspoon of snake oil will give them the hapiness they seek. I just so happen to have a warehouse full of said oil, real cheap.
 
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