trying to recover

[iamanavalanche]

i still feel fucked up. everyday i feel like im suffering and that dying would be the best option. i experience anxiety attacks almost everyday and i cannot stop thinking about the hundred of sexual assaults and abuse i have gone through. but i want to recover and i don't know why. i just want to feel better instead of sobbing because i feel that my ctb is inevitable. i experience love and happiness and even if it is short-lived, i want it to last.

so i will be at least trying my best to leave sasu for good. knowing myself, i will probably check up when i feel depressed but i will try.
if we are friends, i am happy to lend my dc as i already have a few of you on there anyways ^^

it is possible and i love and care about you all in ways i do not experience with someone who isnt on this site.
<3 see u on this side, not the other at least not yet

 

[Todsünde]

Sounds rough what you have to deal with but I'm happy to hear you wanna push through regardless. I wish u all the strength needed

 

[Sadgirl121]

If you ever need anything my PMs are always open