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thinking about it
- Sep 15, 2023
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not sure if these posts are allowed, let me know if a deletion is needed.
I've been looking at methods for a while, but im honestly unsure of what option to choose.
At first I thought partial suspension would be nice as it seems like a guaranteed death, but I'm terrified someone will find me before being finished (since I have a roommate w/ my college dorm).
Then I thought I could just jump from this 4 story building towards a secluded ally way (I'd be on the 4th story, not the top of the building), but I'm unsure if that would kill me because after researching I learned that your body could tilt and not land exactly on the head.
If you have any suggestions please let me know. Here are some things about me/I'm okay with (if that helps):
I've been looking at methods for a while, but im honestly unsure of what option to choose.
At first I thought partial suspension would be nice as it seems like a guaranteed death, but I'm terrified someone will find me before being finished (since I have a roommate w/ my college dorm).
Then I thought I could just jump from this 4 story building towards a secluded ally way (I'd be on the 4th story, not the top of the building), but I'm unsure if that would kill me because after researching I learned that your body could tilt and not land exactly on the head.
If you have any suggestions please let me know. Here are some things about me/I'm okay with (if that helps):
- Up to 15 minutes of pain. I have a good pain tolerance and I'll be taking 3 tablets of oxycodone, but the shorter the better.
- Doesn't matter to me if they find my body, or not, after death.
- My budget is decently high so I can buy whatever materials needed.
- I'd prefer if it wasn't something I could withdraw from once started. I've tried cutting before discovering this site, but wasn't successful because of the amount of effort required once I started (but I guess it's good I didnt do much damage because those success rates kinda suck).
- I also have a LOT of Dicyclomine, an anticholinergic, which (from very minimal research) I know can inhibit the parasympathetic nervous system (regulates the heart). I just don't know if it would actually kill me or what dose I would use.