Ups and downs of recovery

[pinstripe]

Post if you're having an up day or a down day and give a brief explanation. Nothing crazy just something where you can look back and track your progress and get some love and encouragement from others.

Example:

Up

Heard from friends and was invited to an activity. Got some laundry done too..

 

[Cloud Busting]

I love this and I hope this thread gains traction. IMO it should be stickied

Drinking wine and wanna polish off the whole bottle while bf sleeping but he would kill me lol

 

[pinstripe]

Down

Have been hit with like 5 surprise bills all at once. World feels brutal and predatory. Death feels like the safest most appealing outcome.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

Was up, but now it's down.

I'm just really tired right now.

 

[tooBadTooLate]

Feeling up. Went to the psychiatrist a few days ago and got some meds. They helped a lot, to the point that I don't feel like I want to CtB anymore, although the noose that I have hanging scares me a bit when I come across it. I'm worried that this won't last, but I suppose it's good to appreciate it while it stays.

 

[Merocero]

Down, feeling real bad lately, relapsed after a few days and i feel lonely af,, waiting for my meds to run out to go to a psychiatrist too(i cant afford it myself but my mom will pay if i run out of meds)

 

[princexhhn]

Up

Classes were suspended today so I slept in. I was just chilling today honestly. I also hate my classmates, college is a fucking clownfest, so maybe the fact that I didn't have to see them also contributed to my good mood

 

[westerly_merlin]

Up,

Went bouldering today. Felt good to work my body and while I am climbing I am not thinking or feeling. Tired now and will sleep well tonight.

 

[MydnytSorrow]

Down

It's one of those days where I feel like I don't belong anywhere. Even at work, surrounded by people, I still feel like I am wearing the cloak of invisibility.

 

[Cloud Busting]

Up

Scared of the uncertainty of life. Putting my hope in Buddhism cuz I want liberation and an end to rebirth. Even if it's not true, if it helps me live a full life who fucking cares.

Scared always of the future and where it will lead so i just need something to believe in and aside from suicide or abusing alcohol and drugs religion is the only thing that has a clear path and I think it will make my life enriched

Didn't fight with my boss and didn't feel responsible for her stress for once and a good friend messaged me to discuss spiritual matters and imma do a tarot reading on him awesome good day yall