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atomicblonded

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Jan 8, 2025
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Hello everyone! This is my first post. I am in my 20s and have struggled with suicidality for most of my life, my first attempt being at 9 years old. It's gotten better and worse, but as I get older and a more mature view on different things, I have even less reasons to live. I am also physically disabled and have experienced crippling, treatment resistant mental illnesses. Medical marijuana is pretty much my only reason to live right now, and something that has helped me stay sane.

Recently graduated college into this crippling economy and job market, I am bordering on homelessness and struggling to remain afloat, even when working full time. I can't afford to eat sometimes. I went through college on scholarships so I am lucky I am not in crippling debt. But I know it will only get worse.

I have always been pretty pessimistic and nihilistic, but always found reasons to keep living. With Trump being in office again, the planet becoming unliveable, and generally struggling to survive, I don't quite see a point in living. My parents are older and blue collar so they have also been struggling financially. I am staying alive for my 18 year old sister with developmental disabilities because I am pretty much her only support system, but she is the only reason I'm still here. If Trump repeals the ACA, I will probably die of my disability anyway because I will not be able to afford care.

I don't have a concrete plan, but I do foresee me making one on or shortly after Inauguration. Things are getting worse and I don't see a point in keeping on. I didn't ask to be here, after all.

I'm conflicted because 1. My sister as I mentioned 2. I help caregive for my grandma with dementia, who is important to me and 3. My job is working with disabled adults and I feel that the work I do is important and they rely on me, even though it doesnt pay the bills. Also because I have attempted before and I am still paying off the hospital bills from that, so if I do it again, it HAS to be foolproof.

In conclusion, though, I have a very philosophical and practical view on suicide. I know it will harm those around me, but I am a firm believer in the right to die, especially because my parents made it clear to me that I was an unwanted pregnancy. My social connections are keeping me afloat but I find that harder and harder to be a reason to live.
 
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juxtaposse

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Jan 16, 2025
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I'm in a similar boat - if they repeal the Affordable Care Act, all of my care for my disabilities will be unavailable because it will be so expensive to get insurance with my pre-existing conditions.

I think it is despicable someone like him can even be in office. He should be in jail for the things he has already done, not about to run the country again and cause lots of people to lose affordable healthcare and die.

I'm thinking of you. I'm thinking of all the disabled people who will be affected. I feel so hopeless because of it all.

I'm trying to hang on currently as well. I have dogs that rely on me (I hope to one day train service dogs for the disabled if I can make it that long). I also lack the funds for a painless end, and I would rather not cause even more pain since I am in so much physical pain constantly. If our society did a better job taking care of people, especially disabled people, I am sure it would be much easier to want to live. I'm sure Trump won't do that, but, knock on wood, if we survive his final presidency, maybe we will have a better presidential candidate come along afterwards?
 
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Aloneandinpain

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Dec 25, 2023
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Trump created an economic miracle during his first presidency. There's no guarantee he'll repeat his magic, and the amount of debt the country is now facing thanks to Biden is beyond belief. However, if anyone can turn things around then it's Trump and his team.
 
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atomicblonded

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Jan 8, 2025
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Trump created an economic miracle during his first presidency. There's no guarantee he'll repeat his magic, and the amount of debt the country is now facing thanks to Biden is beyond belief. However, if anyone can turn things around then it's Trump and his team.
It is simply corporate greed. No politician will fix it because they directly benefit from corporate greed and the ruling class standing on the backs of the poor. No matter who's in office, things are only going to get worse from here, and I would rather not be around for it.
 
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Aloneandinpain

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It is simply corporate greed. No politician will fix it because they directly benefit from corporate greed and the ruling class standing on the backs of the poor. No matter who's in office, things are only going to get worse from here, and I would rather not be around for it.
I think it depends. The nation debt is beyond sky high, so that inevitably means enormous cuts in the size of the state and essentially Biden has already spent all the future welfare and social security money.

On the other hand, those lucky enough to have jobs skills and their health will surely thrive and benefit enormously from Trump lowering energy prices, restoring peace to the world once again and and deporting illegals. Furthermore, less illegals means more jobs for Americans and higher wages too. Getting rid of race-hate DEI practices also bodes well in terms of economic success and employment for those with skills/qualifations.
 
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atomicblonded

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Jan 8, 2025
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I think it depends. The nation debt is beyond sky high, so that inevitably means enormous cuts in the size of the state and essentially Biden has already spent all the future welfare and social security money.

On the other hand, those lucky enough to have jobs skills and their health will surely thrive and benefit enormously from Trump lowering energy prices, restoring peace to the world once again and and deporting illegals. Furthermore, less illegals means more jobs for Americans and higher wages too. Getting rid of race-hate DEI practices also bodes well in terms of economic success and employment for those with skills/qualifations.
That's cool. It's not my problem anymore, though. See ya in the next bardo.
 
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fallingtopieces

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May 6, 2024
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Trump created an economic miracle during his first presidency. There's no guarantee he'll repeat his magic, and the amount of debt the country is now facing thanks to Biden is beyond belief. However, if anyone can turn things around then it's Trump and his team.
Economic miracle? Why are so many Trump supporters so deluded? Like literally make up facts just like Trump makes up lies. They will walk themselves and the rest of the country off a cliff if Trump said to. Never learn to actually read between the lines, look at the actual facts.

Economically things are going to get worse. Do you know why the financial/banking crisis happened in 2008? It was because there was no regulation and Greenspan took a hands off approach, things will work just themselves out. Then Lehman crashed, and the house of cars fell apart leading to a chain reaction across the globe. Since that crash, the rich have literally gotten richer while everyone else has been left behind. Trump is ready to slash regulations, it's what Republicans do, and all it does is help bankers, hedge funds, corporations and the wealthy get wealthier. America is now becoming like Russia, an oligarchy where the wealthy have incredible power and everyday people will have it worse. You know what happens when there's consolidation, monopolies? You will get cartel-like behavior, prices will rise more. Lol, if you think Elon Musk gives a shit about you, or Zuckerberg or Bezos. Suffering to come my friend, reality will bite.
 
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J&L383

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Jul 18, 2023
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I'm in a similar boat - if they repeal the Affordable Care Act, all of my care for my disabilities will be unavailable because it will be so expensive to get insurance with my pre-existing conditions.

I think it is despicable someone like him can even be in office. He should be in jail for the things he has already done, not about to run the country again and cause lots of people to lose affordable healthcare and die.

I'm thinking of you. I'm thinking of all the disabled people who will be affected. I feel so hopeless because of it all.

I'm trying to hang on currently as well. I have dogs that rely on me (I hope to one day train service dogs for the disabled if I can make it that long). I also lack the funds for a painless end, and I would rather not cause even more pain since I am in so much physical pain constantly. If our society did a better job taking care of people, especially disabled people, I am sure it would be much easier to want to live. I'm sure Trump won't do that, but, knock on wood, if we survive his final presidency, maybe we will have a better presidential candidate come along afterwards?
I agree. These are potentially dark times. And I'm not sure I have the stomach for it. But let's not do anything too rash, give it some time and see how it plays out. If we can get through this, and, although four years seems like a long time, at least there should be an end. This country, and this world, have seen some dark times in the past and if we can live through this we can say, "I was there when . . . " šŸ¤—
 
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Aloneandinpain

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Dec 25, 2023
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Economically things are going to get worse. Do you know why the financial/banking crisis happened in 2008? It was because there was no regulation and Greenspan took a hands off approach, things will work just themselves out. Then Lehman crashed, and the house of cars fell apart leading to a chain reaction across the globe. Since that crash, the rich have literally gotten richer while everyone else has been left behind. Trump is ready to slash regulations, it's what Republicans do, and all it does is help bankers, hedge funds, corporations and the wealthy get wealthier.
I agree that Covid caused huge problems for Trump but it was a complete mess everywhere else too. I'd also criticise him for failing to cut excessive government spending during his first term, he certainly trued at least and it's one of his key priorities this time around.

On the other hand your analysis of 2008 is fundamental flawed. The big reason it was such a disaster for the average person wasn't the crash itself but because of the response with all the bailouts.


Real deregulation and a genuine hands-off approach mean you stick to that through thick and thin. Instead we saw deregulation when times were good and then the government starts stepping in and bailing out the failing banks or crappy car companies when they mess up. Heads we lose, tails they win.

In a true capitalist system you let the big banks and corporations fail when they mess up, that's better than any regulation. And to bail companies out is to take away responsibility and accountability and encourage them to repeat their mistakes all over again in future.
 

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