Discussion Utter loneliness

[evel¡n]

I'm so lonely that I'm embarassed of my existence. I am the sort of person people would throw weird looks at and call a "loser" or "a weirdo", which in fact, as hard as it may be to accept, I am. I perfectly fit into the category. I have always been lonely and alone. I have never had friends( literally no one- i need to stress this because usually when people say they are lonely, they still have about 1 or 2 friends). That is not the case for me, though, because when I say no one, I mean 0. I am extremely insecure, life is no fun and it's only become worse. With time I have developed depression and become suicidal. I am not the most social person, but I have still made some efforts to befriend some people. I am always nice and willing to help, but for some reason no one likes me, no one wants me and I am wondering: "What's wrong with me?". In my personal life the situation is bearable since I got used to it, but at school there are no words to describe how I feel. It would really help me to know if there is anyone else in my situation. I have been wondering that for so long and I would love to know that maybe I am not alone in this.

 

[deikol]

I'm in the same situation. I cried this morning realizing I have no one and it's all my fault. I never truly made an effort to make friends. I had a few in elementary but once I got to middle school we separated and making friends was too difficult. I got used to the loneliness and the years went by quickly and now I'm twenty with no friends. Only thing helping me is my family which I'm so grateful for. I know its weird but seeing your posts made me feel better knowing I'm not alone at being alone.

 

[Plutopolis]

Hey there, I totally feel you. School time for me was an extremely rough time for me due to loneliness, and even now at 26, I struggle with the same stuff. I had some good friends for the last few years, but due to the years at school I built a wall around me and never let people close, so eventually the friends I did make I ended up pushing away to the point that now I have no real friends. I even found someone who was romantically interested in me and I in her, however eventually I ruined that too due to my own complexes. The regret and loathing for myself I feel now is almost too much to handle. There's many times I want to end it all just to stop feeling this pain. So hey, you're not the only one suffering right now, I'm right there with you.