dundunch1cken
Member
- Nov 15, 2024
- 10
this is really weird but i kinda need advice on how to not be so impulsive, cuz i might not CTB and if i don't, the consequences (may) be kinda bad…
// mentions of s*x, dr*gs
like i have a boyfriend right now and he is the sweetest person ever and i'm eternally grateful for him but i can't help but think about having s** with him or breaking up with him so i can have s** with other people and my sex drive is high on w**d and i still have a fwb that i met up with recently (we didn't do anything! but i was so dumb i was thinking about it the whole time)
like how do i stop thinking this way?? just this urge to leave the one thing keeping me stable and start ruining my life like that? i can't just say i'm super h**ny and leave it at that because i feel crazier than just h**ny
and not to mention i've already been spending so much money that i'm almost going into the money i basically stole from my parents… i swore to give that money back no matter what but i just justify spending more by saying "i'm gonna CTB anyways, might as well enjoy life" and i feel so guilty spending money but i do want to enjoy my last moments, if i choose to end it soon.
i actually have no idea what i'll do in the near future. there's way too many emotions to figure out what i want. i guess we'll just see until my sn gets delivered.
// mentions of s*x, dr*gs
like i have a boyfriend right now and he is the sweetest person ever and i'm eternally grateful for him but i can't help but think about having s** with him or breaking up with him so i can have s** with other people and my sex drive is high on w**d and i still have a fwb that i met up with recently (we didn't do anything! but i was so dumb i was thinking about it the whole time)
like how do i stop thinking this way?? just this urge to leave the one thing keeping me stable and start ruining my life like that? i can't just say i'm super h**ny and leave it at that because i feel crazier than just h**ny
and not to mention i've already been spending so much money that i'm almost going into the money i basically stole from my parents… i swore to give that money back no matter what but i just justify spending more by saying "i'm gonna CTB anyways, might as well enjoy life" and i feel so guilty spending money but i do want to enjoy my last moments, if i choose to end it soon.
i actually have no idea what i'll do in the near future. there's way too many emotions to figure out what i want. i guess we'll just see until my sn gets delivered.