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golgappa
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- Oct 7, 2024
- 68
I wake up with my body shaking, like everyday for last 3 months now , I cry before I sleep, just scared all day , been kinda abusing anxiety pills but no matter how many I take after an hr the stress comes back...I am scared no matter how much I pray God won't listen it just keeps getting worse.
For years all I asked was for to be happy, just happiness and that's the thing I don't have it never lasts for more than few weeks for me and by happiness I mean not have anxiety and be able to live like a normal human being.
Even though ik everyone I care about won't care if I am gone except my parents those are the only people I should think about but I really just can't take it anymore even for there sake ..maybe I can idk sometimes I wonder if I am dead will those people who hurt me care? Feel sorry? Idk if I want them too..maybe kind of but in the end only people who will remember me is my parents not those people who hurt me so should I even care? They will think for like 2 days? Or an hr max idk tbh
Idk I just wish to be OK if there is still a chance
For years all I asked was for to be happy, just happiness and that's the thing I don't have it never lasts for more than few weeks for me and by happiness I mean not have anxiety and be able to live like a normal human being.
Even though ik everyone I care about won't care if I am gone except my parents those are the only people I should think about but I really just can't take it anymore even for there sake ..maybe I can idk sometimes I wonder if I am dead will those people who hurt me care? Feel sorry? Idk if I want them too..maybe kind of but in the end only people who will remember me is my parents not those people who hurt me so should I even care? They will think for like 2 days? Or an hr max idk tbh
Idk I just wish to be OK if there is still a chance