Finally found DMC, ordering is really tempting (but pricy) and I actually just want someone to care and talk me out of it. But no one knows and no one cares. Feeling sad and lonely, sorry I just wanted to vent 
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Ozzyno
Lovely loner.
- Oct 10, 2024
- 178
Why are you taking this decision? You definitely shouldn't think about suicide unless there is no hope, you have hope and it shows
Piling onto the above, if there's hope then nothing is impossible. Bad odds are still beatable.
And the final option will still be there in the future, right?
And the final option will still be there in the future, right?
avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
- 1,330
As the other two said, you seem uncertain. It's never, ever a good idea to carry out something like this when you are thinking this way. Not only can it screw up your plans, it might make the experience much worse. Plus, you possibly could change your mind during the process, but by then it could be too late, or you call for help/get found and end up institutionalized. Neither are options you would want.
As for someone to care, well, three people thus far have said you should think about this. If that doesn't show caring, well I guess I have to look up the meaning of the word again because I clearly don't know what it means. That said, take some time to dig deep down inside yourself and figure things out. In the meantime, talk to people you feel comfortable with and trust. Whether it be here or otherwise. Just don't make a rash decision based on emotion alone. I wish you the best for yourself and remember, people do care.
As for someone to care, well, three people thus far have said you should think about this. If that doesn't show caring, well I guess I have to look up the meaning of the word again because I clearly don't know what it means. That said, take some time to dig deep down inside yourself and figure things out. In the meantime, talk to people you feel comfortable with and trust. Whether it be here or otherwise. Just don't make a rash decision based on emotion alone. I wish you the best for yourself and remember, people do care.
kitia973
我亦定山河
- Dec 24, 2024
- 62
I get that it can be tempting for everything to end when you are experencing profound despair. We all feel that way - and I certainly know what it is like to be rejected and ostracized by the people around me. My chat is always open if you do wish to talk. And yes, people do care, at least on this forum we do. I hope you can find a sense of belonging here.
Euthanza
Self Righteous Suicide
- Jun 9, 2022
- 1,442
TopChicken
Member
- Mar 4, 2024
- 51
Is the reason you want to because of the sadness and loneliness, or is it something else? You dont need to share if you dont want to. Although if it is the former, at least those are temporary feelings. They may last a while, but it is possible to pull through. Like a few others have said, you can always reconsider later.
No matter what you decide, if you want to talk, feel free to reach out.
No matter what you decide, if you want to talk, feel free to reach out.
Thanks for the replies. I just do not know and do not care anymore. If I order, I know how it is going to end. Some part of me wishes it would have been different. But after years of therapy I do not see it getting better anymore and I do not want to anymore. My therapist says I can CTB if my therapy is over (in a few months) and even friends do not check in anymore. Why would I stay alive then?
