Venting Want to traumatize people

[Nexvyr]

I know this sounds awful, but somehow I feel like I want to make a grand thing out of my suicide. I want it to make headlines.

A suicide method I have always dreamed of would be going to the capital of my country and setting myself on fire while walking down the biggest shopping street. It would gain peoples attention while they would be too terrified by the flames to attempt to save me. Further it would make me suffer all the way until I died. The only people I would feel bad for would be the children having to endure that sight.

After all I would never actually do it. I do after all not want to be remembered as a bad person. But, hey... a girl can dream ig.

 

[Namelesa]

I can understand the want to get attention from your suicide. I often crave attention whether that's positive or negative cus I want to feel like I mean something to others. I want to feel cared for as I feel like I have had a painful life but I also think I deserve hate and to suffer cus of some of things I am feel guilt for.

I also want to use my suicide to punish and have revenge on my family and other pro-lifers for trapping and preventing my suicide attempts. Them not trying to empathize with and understand my mental pain and not respecting my freedom to quit life early makes me suffer more and so what to die even more. I won't think of using my suicide like this if they understood and respected my freedom but they don't so I want them to suffer like I have done.

I do think people who haven't caused you mental pain and suicidal thoughts shouldn't have to experience seeing a suicide as they didn't harm you and seeing death can be traumatizing. No one innocent deserves to be traumatized.

 

[LukaParrot]

Depression sometimes can lead us to crazy thoughts, cause a lot of sadness, been revolted, with all we experience. We wanna scream in pain for maybe other people understand what we as passing through the moment.

In my darkest moments, I wanna jump from my balcony and be gone.... this happened in my building but with a teenage, he jumped from his window and didnt die on crash, die in way to the hospital. It was saturday, there was a lot of parents playing with their kids in the ground, they saw the scene and was all crying and shaking, even adults was traumatized. I didnt see, but can you imagine the gore scene, exposed fractures, blood, pieces and the teenage was still alive..... my god.

I remove that from my SI after that day, it's not fair with others to cause such a trauma/impact in their lifes just because I want to die. Also dont want to die in anything that ca lead to this kinda scene, like gun, crashing a car....

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'd want to traumatise my parents for them being so religious and pro life to where they make me do their religious bullshit too but, at the end of the day, my suicide (if I were to do it) would be traumatic on its own. I wouldn't want to traumatise them further than I'd have to since I don't want that to affect how they parent my younger brother and I do support negative utilitarianism so I'd be a hypocrite to cause them more suffering than I'd have to.

 

[yxmux]

Same.

I think it would be pretty funny.

 

[ma0]

I've had those types of thoughts too. It's nice to fantasize and daydream about every once in a while, but at some point you have to draw the line between what makes sense, versus over the top and unrealistic.

 

[Wonhun]

i am interested on the legal perspective on how to maximize the trauma output and minimize the legal consequence. As it might classified as terraism or something as you impose threat on someone according to the law. Not sure how people manage to spin it out.
Especially when you are in the courtroom/psychward/police station being investigated without the help of a lawyer.