Venting Wanting to tell my friends Im on SS

[Abditory]

Being back on SS makes me want to tell my friends again. I don't know what I'm hoping for with this, though knowing that it went horrible last time. A part of me wants to tell them, like, 'Hey, lol, I'm on SS again,' just so they know I'm getting bad again. Maybe a part of me wants them to push me away so I can be all alone again. Maybe a part of me wants them to see me as a bad person.

I don't know anything anymore.

 

[SVEN]

Havng read your other post and how they reacted, I'm not sure that sharing with them about rejoining SanSu would be wise.

 

[Namelesa]

I totally understand the wanting for people to see me as a bad person. I feel like I don't deserve good things and that I feel obligated to show how bad I am so people don't treat me nicely.

I won't share about you being on SaSu again unless they actually understand suicide.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

The people closest to me know I am on a suicide website but they're all either: depressed too or understand suicide. If I had anyone else to reveal this too, I wouldn't unless I had a big certainty that they would understand.

I know sometimes we may feel that any attention is better than no attention but think about the consequences it may have in your life fully before revealing something like that. It's one of those things that will change the other person's perspective on you forever. There's no undo button.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

People who have never suffered to a point where they actually gathered info and maybe material for a suicide method won't ever understand this. There's suffering out there but the avg suffering is covered by enough. Positive experience and negative experience is an avg. equal while for a suicidal person negative experience is the usual over a long period of time.

You're not a bad person! Most likely it's out of your control why u r here!

 

[SomePeacePlease]

I've told my therapist that I'm on here. I didn't specify the name of the site(in the spirit of not spreading the name to people with "normal life", not in the same situation as most of us).

Once I told her what it was about, and that it was not a pro-suicide site, she understood. Besides, she has already written a 4 page letter about how my situation as Chronically Suicidal, have become a lot worse over the last few years. It hardly came as a big surprise to her.

Also, being here does NOT make you a bad person. You are hurting.

"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society."
- Jiddu Krishnamurti

 

[lilah]

i think it could be a good idea to tell them!

 

[blak73]

I told a friend, I just did not name the site to preserve its privacy, but just said it is actually a space where people don't freak the hell out over what you say, and that is quite comforting. I told her there are lots of forums, people of different perspectives, and it is just not taboo to name thoughts and ideas. She considered what I said and thought it could be good there is an outlet for people. She still worries of course that I think of suicide, but knowing if the site made no difference, she knows I have struggled for a long time. I think it is more how you talk about it, not if you do.

 

[lapislazu]

I'm also debating telling my friends or not. I only have a couple people left in my life, and they know I've been suicidal in theory. They don't really offer much support, and they have never been depressed or gotten anywhere near this level of struggle to simply figure out a way to die. As a different comment said, people who have never experienced this low just can't seem to fathom this website as a helpful resource at all. I'm worried if I tell them, a switch will flip in their minds from "her ctbing is an abstract concept" to "she's about to ctb" and they might impede my plans somehow. But part of me still wants to tell them, almost like "hey, you guys have always been dismissive and never understood, so I finally found a group of people to talk to".

 

[xandermax]

If you're genuinely suicidal, this is the last thing I'd imagine you should do.

They'll just see it as a cry for help, write it off as you being melodramatic.