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[not_ready]

I have reached I point I no longer desire my life I'm scared it just matter of time and I will be killing myself this feeling is scary when you suspect any day to be your last. it feels good to know every thing will come to an end but scary cause probably will be impulsive and fast.. scary to see apart if you so scared of another part one day my suicidal part will take charge and end the suffering
I'm so sorry if this sound confusing

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm sorry you feel like this. It must be very confusing for you. I hope you make the right choice for you and get what you need whatever you choose. Maybe some time might help you deal with the impulses and make a less impulsive choice.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

Thank you for this post. It describes my position exactly and I had not thought of it that way. I absolutely understand, not confusing at all! You are very intuitive to understand yourself that way.

I am hanging on. Know there is an old lady here in the US who feels the same as you. You are not alone in this. We can hang on together, maybe?

 

[not_ready]

I'm sorry you feel like this. It must be very confusing for you. I hope you make the right choice for you and get what you need whatever you choose. Maybe some time might help you deal with the impulses and make a less impulsive choice.

I'm trying to controltthe impulses thank you

Thank you for this post. It describes my position exactly and I had not thought of it that way. I absolutely understand, not confusing at all! You are very intuitive to understand yourself that way.

I am hanging on. Know there is an old lady here in the US who feels the same as you. You are not alone in this. We can hang on together, maybe?

Happy this helps even if it's a little.. of course we can hang on together till our day comes thank you very much

 

[Sensei]

When I have depressive episodes, it's very much like what you describe. It's as if I'm on autopilot and I have to reason with myself not to take the final step.

 

[Emily_Numb]

I have reached I point I no longer desire my life I'm scared it just matter of time and I will be killing myself this feeling is scary when you suspect any day to be your last. it feels good to know every thing will come to an end but scary cause probably will be impulsive and fast.. scary to see apart if you so scared of another part one day my suicidal part will take charge and end the suffering
I'm so sorry if this sound confusing

I get a sense for how you feel too. I honestly don't know how I will be from one day to the next. From am to pm. I have been having a really good few days and I can feel the darkness and pain returning this evening. It's utterly Exhausting.