Story Well looks like the grim reaper going to get one way or other

[Mort]

Well i mite not need to kill my self my body is in a bad way . As you know from another post on here i passed out when i was shopping for goodies a few weeks ago. Well after s lot of prodding and poking and a shit load of tests looks like i have cancer. It's in my liver and my kidneys and my bowels its a rite mess in they . They want to do an operation on me and give me chemotherapy just to prolong my life HA . No thanks dont want spend want lift of my time being sick and throwing up . Mind you got an odd feeling the doctor might force me to have it he work out from when i pass out i was trying to kill my self slowly . I bet they sum mental thing that lets them do it to sodding gits. Why doctors got to play God they knows i am going to die sum time soon so prolong it ?. Think i am going to do a runner and hid sum were not the ideal thing but if it keeps the doctors away from me i happy with that . Got plenty of pain killers got 300 tramadol 50 mg and 900 of codeine 30mg do be painless o all so got oral morphine 10% solution 6 bottles . Sort of glad i am going this way makes things neater . Look like its going to be 4 to 6 weeks so got time to sort out my funeral and money worries YAY SEE you on the flipside

 

[deathbycakes]

Well i mite not need to kill my self my body is in a bad way . As you know from another post on here i passed out when i was shopping for goodies a few weeks ago. Well after s lot of prodding and poking and a shit load of tests looks like i have cancer. It's in my liver and my kidneys and my bowels its a rite mess in they . They want to do an operation on me and give me chemotherapy just to prolong my life HA . No thanks dont want spend want lift of my time being sick and throwing up . Mind you got an odd feeling the doctor might force me to have it he work out from when i pass out i was trying to kill my self slowly . I bet they sum mental thing that lets them do it to sodding gits. Why doctors got to play God they knows i am going to die sum time soon so prolong it ?. Think i am going to do a runner and hid sum were not the ideal thing but if it keeps the doctors away from me i happy with that . Got plenty of pain killers got 300 tramadol 50 mg and 900 of codeine 30mg do be painless o all so got oral morphine 10% solution 6 bottles . Sort of glad i am going this way makes things neater . Look like its going to be 4 to 6 weeks so got time to sort out my funeral and money worries YAY SEE you on the flipside

oh how i envy you right now.
i wish the best for you, may you found the peace you're looking for

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Imagine knowing there are 4-6 weeks left to cuss everybody out. Full advantage would be taken.

 

[Mybattle]

Sorry for your troubles in life but to be honest I envy you so much... At least you can die with ''dignity'' no people after saying you were ''weak'' and now you can talk about dying with other people and maybe get some earned sympathy.

Best of luck.

 

[21Neberg]

I'm not sure if this is appropriate to say but... I guess you got lucky seeing as you wanted to die anyways? And even better, your family will never know you wanted to die, it's basically an 'accidental' death.

I hope you won't be in much pain these coming months though.

 

[Mort]

Well i mite not need to kill my self my body is in a bad way . As you know from another post on here i passed out when i was shopping for goodies a few weeks ago. Well after s lot of prodding and poking and a shit load of tests looks like i have cancer. It's in my liver and my kidneys and my bowels its a rite mess in they . They want to do an operation on me and give me chemotherapy just to prolong my life HA . No thanks dont want spend want lift of my time being sick and throwing up . Mind you got an odd feeling the doctor might force me to have it he work out from when i pass out i was trying to kill my self slowly . I bet they sum mental thing that lets them do it to sodding gits. Why doctors got to play God they knows i am going to die sum time soon so prolong it ?. Think i am going to do a runner and hid sum were not the ideal thing but if it keeps the doctors away from me i happy with that . Got plenty of pain killers got 300 tramadol 50 mg and 900 of codeine 30mg do be painless o all so got oral morphine 10% solution 6 bottles . Sort of glad i am going this way makes things neater . Look like its going to be 4 to 6 weeks so got time to sort out my funeral and money worries YAY SEE you on the flipside

Well here an update on things a doctor is trying to save me but i dont want to be save . Just my luck i get a hero doctor the thing is they can make me take the meds snd have the ops to . Its all down when i try to poison myself they work out did it on purpose so they think i am nuts now . Looks like they mite try to seconded me think i am going to do a runner so much for passing away in my nice warm bed. Looks like be in sum shitty B&B why o why cant they just leave me alone. Had doctors who did not give a dam in the past but o no i got one who does care this time . I just want crap load of pain pills a warm bed and dope up to the eyeballs then i can just let go and sleep for every . I am at home at the mo but call me paranoid but I think they're sum one just down the street in a car keeping an eye on me. Call the cops she what happens then LOL :) . Well i stop boring you lot now just wish you guys good luck and hope you find your long sleep .

 

[ZiggyStardust]

Well here an update on things a doctor is trying to save me but i dont want to be save . Just my luck i get a hero doctor the thing is they can make me take the meds snd have the ops to . Its all down when i try to poison myself they work out did it on purpose so they think i am nuts now . Looks like they mite try to seconded me think i am going to do a runner so much for passing away in my nice warm bed. Looks like be in sum shitty B&B why o why cant they just leave me alone. Had doctors who did not give a dam in the past but o no i got one who does care this time . I just want crap load of pain pills a warm bed and dope up to the eyeballs then i can just let go and sleep for every . I am at home at the mo but call me paranoid but I think they're sum one just down the street in a car keeping an eye on me. Call the cops she what happens then LOL :) . Well i stop boring you lot now just wish you guys good luck and hope you find your long sleep .

where I live people have the right to say No and demand a referral to palliative care. I am sorry to hear you don't seem to have that option.

 

[Mort]

Well i am piss to the max i hates doctors i want to kill them all . As you know i was going to end my life but then i was told i had cancer . Yay i thort nice clean death but had a check up yesterday and was told they are just benine tumors. Was i piss i ask how could they fuck that up but they made a load of bullshit. And they were shocked how i reacted to is they thought i be happy i was going to be a live . Before they cotton on i just walked out of they my larst words to the doctor was he an asshole . Well dont know what i am going to now going to have a long think so be around here a bit longer. Mind i glad i found this site its give me sum good ideas and given me plenty of things to muse over thanks guys:D

 

[TAW122]

Sorry for your troubles in life but to be honest I envy you so much... At least you can die with ''dignity'' no people after saying you were ''weak'' and now you can talk about dying with other people and maybe get some earned sympathy.

Best of luck.

In addition to this, keep quiet until you are able to ctb because you still don't want to risk people trying 'save' you just to prolong life until the natural end. (Unless you are letting the disease take your life instead, in which would be different than actively ctb'ing.)

 

[Mort]

In addition to this, keep quiet until you are able to ctb because you still don't want to risk people trying 'save' you just to prolong life until the natural end. (Unless you are letting the disease take your life instead, in which would be different than actively ctb'ing.)

Well the end is no more the doctors cock it up they none cancer tumors:( well looks like back to slowly killing my self.