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emma99

Student
Jul 31, 2024
193
Okay so I have two plans of how i want to CTB.

Plan A, which would be my preference method
is to attempt to drown myself in the bath
by sedating myself with a strong mix of drink and drugs.

the other Method which I am preparing for is the
nitrogen inter gas method. I have a few concerns about this.
Iv been trying to figure out how to adjust the argon regulator
and making sure the tubes dont get tangled, or that the tanks
fall over after i pass out.

I would much rather drown in the bath

but my concerns are is there any record of people who
survived an attempted bath drowning
but came out of it injured and disabled.

I don't mind if i wake up and i'm cold and shivering.
I will just finish myself off with the inert gas at that
point or just hang myself
as iv also prepared a noose.
but that has its own complications as well as
the only location is next to a window.
and if i start convulsing then god only knows
what will happen banging off a window
and i don't want to be noticed and rescued
 
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dreamcatcher90

Member
Aug 3, 2024
97
Hey, may I ask why do you want to ctb? What happened? why are you feeling this way?

Remember that is good to vent and share your problems sometimes. Talking helps.

Life has it's ups and downs, you're not alone in this situation.
 
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CatLvr

Elementalist
Aug 1, 2024
809
What @dreamcatcher90 said. While the choice is yours, obviously, if you need someone to talk to we are glad to listen and bounce around ideas that might help. Have you taken a look at the Resources part of the forum yet??

Btw, while I have no personal experience I had a friend in college who very nearly drown in a river bottom we used to go to in the evenings to build a campfire and drink beer. While she was not trying to ctb, the things she said about how it felt, and the problems she had after the incident (she developed a horrible infection from the water in her lungs) had convinced me that drowning myself was pretty much off the table.

Give yourself a little time. You may find that things get better for you.
 
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emma99

Student
Jul 31, 2024
193
Hey, may I ask why do you want to ctb? What happened? why are you feeling this way?

Remember that is good to vent and share your problems sometimes. Talking helps.

Life has it's ups and downs, you're not alone in this situation.
I appreciate the hand of help you are offering.
but id reather not discuss the situation online.

Iv already rang all the suicide / depressed / crisis helplines in my country.
and even these trained counsellors are speechless when i tell them
my situation. The last time i attempted CTB I was arrested by the police
They were even speechless whilst driving me to the hospital
when i told them of my situation.

My situation is life changing, and is not a situation of loneliness

Again though, thank you for the hand of help
 
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dreamcatcher90

Member
Aug 3, 2024
97
Please remember that there's always some kind of solution to improve your situation. Anyway, I hope you will find the peace you're searching for. you can always contact me if you need someone to talk to.
 
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Xe-

Seems better than Tinder
Jul 29, 2024
25
I don't think anyone has a right to sway your opinion or to make a sentimental gesture, like giving yourself more time. You asked for facts, not support in your life. Not everything gets better and you deserve to do it when you want. I know nothing about drowning in a bath. Drowning sounds painful and long, but there are articles to help aid a decision on SWD or shallow water drowning. Just keep looking I guess.
 
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emma99

Student
Jul 31, 2024
193
Please remember that there's always some kind of solution to improve your situation. Anyway, I hope you will find the peace you're searching for. you can always contact me if you need someone to talk to.
Again i appreciate your help.

but i don't agree with your statement that "there's always some kind of solution to improve your situation"
I used to actually believe this but after finding myself in the situation I am in, i have realised that no, there is not always a solution.

Imagine that you live in say south america, and Russia has ordered your deportation. and if they go through with this deportation order, you will become the next Alexey Navalny. So the deportation orders come through, and you are put on notice. And so you are put on Airplane from south america to Russia. And the flight plan is top fly over Europe.

So your on the flight and you try asking the captain of the Airplane to land in Europe so you can get refuge. And your on this airplane and your begging the captain "please land in Europe, i don't want to die in Russian prison"
but the captain of the airplane refuse.

There is no parachute, and no way for you to exit the airplane, however at the back of the airpolane you see a tank of nitrogen. What do you do in that situation?
 
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dreamcatcher90

Member
Aug 3, 2024
97
Again i appreciate your help.

but i don't agree with your statement that "there's always some kind of solution to improve your situation"
I used to actually believe this but after finding myself in the situation I am in, i have realised that no, there is not always a solution.

Imagine that you live in say south america, and Russia has ordered your deportation. and if they go through with this deportation order, you will become the next Alexey Navalny. So the deportation orders come through, and you are put on notice. And so you are put on Airplane from south america to Russia. And the flight plan is top fly over Europe.

So your on the flight and you try asking the captain of the Airplane to land in Europe so you can get refuge. And your on this airplane and your begging the captain "please land in Europe, i don't want to die in Russian prison"
but the captain of the airplane refuse.

There is no parachute, and no way for you to exit the airplane, however at the back of the airpolane you see a tank of nitrogen. What do you do in that situation?
if the situation is that serious, probably the nitrogen tank seems like a better option, not gonna lie.
If you're on this forum, probably you're not in a plane yet.
Maybe an escape, changing your id and running away would help.
 
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emma99

Student
Jul 31, 2024
193
if the situation is that serious, probably the nitrogen tank seems like a better option, not gonna lie.
If you're on this forum, probably you're not in a plane yet.
Maybe an escape, changing your id and running away would help.
You joined his website yesterday (3rd August 2024)
Why exactly did you join?
are you interested in ctb
or are you just coming on here to try to save ppl
wirh your god complex who dont want to hear
what it is you have to say?
 
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dreamcatcher90

Member
Aug 3, 2024
97
You joined his website yesterday (3rd August 2024)
Why exactly did you join?
are you interested in ctb
or are you just coming on here to try to save ppl
wirh your god complex who dont want to hear
what it is you have to say?
I vented in the morning. I have been diagnosed with mental illness and my life is in ruins for more than two years. I placed an order for sn. Having an option made me more peaceful and reduced my anxiety.
I fully support cbt, hope you will find the peace you're are searching for.
 
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emma99

Student
Jul 31, 2024
193
I vented in the morning. I have been diagnosed with mental illness and my life is in ruins for more than two years. I placed an order for sn. Having an option made me more peaceful and reduced my anxiety.
I fully support cbt, hope you will find the peace you're are searching for.
wait so your also thinking of CTB whilst at the same time
trying to tell other people not to.

you know what, i respect that.
I'm probably the same way you know,.

wanting to die, wanting the pain to stop,
bur at the same time you know
deep down that you shouldn't have to do this
so you try to pursue other people
to hang on just that bit longer.

Its like were all on sinking boats in the ocean,
trying to tell other people to bale the water out of their
sinking ship with a bucket.

whilst at the same time, getting ready to ctb so we don't have to drown
 
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dreamcatcher90

Member
Aug 3, 2024
97
wait so your also thinking of CTB whilst at the same time
trying to tell other people not to.

you know what, i respect that.
I'm probably the same way you know,.
Just trying to be kind.

Besides drowning option seems very nasty. You will probably fail, your survival instincts will kick in. It doesn't seem like an easy method.
worst case scenario, I would choose hanging. SN seems like an easy method too.
 
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JackisSuffering

Member
Oct 13, 2024
19
I appreciate the hand of help you are offering.
but id reather not discuss the situation online.

Iv already rang all the suicide / depressed / crisis helplines in my country.
and even these trained counsellors are speechless when i tell them
my situation. The last time i attempted CTB I was arrested by the police
They were even speechless whilst driving me to the hospital
when i told them of my situation.

My situation is life changing, and is not a situation of loneliness

Again though, thank you for the hand of help
Curious to know
 
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ihateearth

Student
Apr 1, 2024
152
Okay so I have two plans of how i want to CTB.

Plan A, which would be my preference method
is to attempt to drown myself in the bath
by sedating myself with a strong mix of drink and drugs.

the other Method which I am preparing for is the
nitrogen inter gas method. I have a few concerns about this.
Iv been trying to figure out how to adjust the argon regulator
and making sure the tubes dont get tangled, or that the tanks
fall over after i pass out.

I would much rather drown in the bath

but my concerns are is there any record of people who
survived an attempted bath drowning
but came out of it injured and disabled.

I don't mind if i wake up and i'm cold and shivering.
I will just finish myself off with the inert gas at that
point or just hang myself
as iv also prepared a noose.
but that has its own complications as well as
the only location is next to a window.
and if i start convulsing then god only knows
what will happen banging off a window
and i don't want to be noticed and rescued
Bathtub drownings are made popular popular through movies but like a lot of things movies are not accurate. It's not deep enough

Whitney Houston and others died in a bathtub after taking a cocktail of strong drugs. They fell asleep or passed out. In my view it's not enough to gamble with especially if found