Just waiting to die, that's all that existing is, it's just waiting for death as after all, all will be gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway no matter what, I'll always see it as the most dreadful, torturous abomination to exist and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I just wish to never suffer again.
All I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence that just causes so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer so much as a result of this cruel, futile existence, to me existing will always be a burden that to me is just waiting to die.