Discussion What do you do in the last week before CTB?

[CuriousPotato]

If you have no friends, family, hobbies...

 

[Alreadylate]

I wake up, spend great part of the day smoking weed and drinking coffe... I call for a pizza or something at night. Stay on my sofa not doing anything.. I may talk to someone from SaSu, and that's all.. I wanted to travel somewhere but not in the mood for that... I just wanna be at peace and not doing anything

 

[FuneralCry]

For me if I had a reliable way to permanently cease existing and knew that I'd be free from this dreadful, torturous existence so soon then I'd just feel relieved, I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again, existing to me is just waiting to die, it's all so futile. I'd try to sleep for as much as possible for the time as after all sleep is the closest to not existing and all I wish and hope for is to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this deeply undesirable, torturous and cruel existence, all I want is to never wake ever again, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to cease existing peacefully that is guaranteed with no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Eat lots of apple pie and custard

 

[L9my]

try and finish some books and distract myself
lots of distraction

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

dispose of my properties in order to minimize the annoyance

 

[playalistic]

If you have no friends, family, hobbies...

do you have something you've always had in the back of your mind along the lines of "i need to do x before i die"

for me i do. there are still places of meaning i need to visit one more time again before i die, places & cities that meant something to me at one point in my life. revisiting things of value

you said no hobbies but maybe listen to music you like one last time, watch a movie one last time, do something of sentimental value, etc...

before i CTB i have a lot of places i need to go to where i made lots of memories so i can be at peace with the past and all the shitty things that have happened

im also going to have a yummy last meal as well with my favorite foods, candy, soda etc. its the little bullshit like that lmao

also if you truly want to die the $ you do have doesnt mean anything anymore. treat yourself to something you normally wouldnt, buy a nice place to stay, whatever...maybe donate the $ you do have to a cause that means something to you, and research a cause you want to devote the last of your $ to (if any, i dont know you but if you do have a reasonable amount of $)

 

[nowherelilies]

my last week plan: (ctb might be july 20)

• declutter – sell appliance, dispose my clothes, pack the remaining stuff into bags (for ease of throwing out)

• deepclean my whole apartment for the last time

• buy cleaning materials (so the people who will clean after me won't be hassled)

• deactivate all my social media accounts, reformat both my phones, delete everything on my laptop

• buy a scented candle (i'll use before ctb to calm myself)

• finish "alice madness returns" f i'm still not done with it

• last day: go to a coffeeshop, eat my favorite meals, buy 2 cans of alcohol (to soothe myself before ctb), light a scented candle then hang myself peacefully :]