kuniwan
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- Oct 22, 2023
- 8
For the first time I decided to take a "mental health day" off of work (I just said I was sick obvs). It's so petty because I drove to work like normal, but realized I forgot my badge in the parking lot, and that was the deciding factor after I went home to try and find it. In background, I did relapse sh recently and my room and car (I do not drunk drive) is littered with alcohol bottles… so I know something is going on in my head even though I can't quite identify it or know why.
Considered calling the hotline for something even though I know people say it's not helpful.
I still feel so guilty about it because I'm so used to just telling myself I'm too sensitive and should just suck it up. I really still feel that now. However, I've noticed that whenever I try to toughen up and go to work anyways, I've made my worst mistakes on the job. I always end up thinking, "what if I didn't go to work like I felt I shouldn't have?" I'm in healthcare, so this weighs in on me because I could be hurting other people.
I don't really get what a mental health day can do right now because it feels like I'm just delaying the next day where I have to deal with everything again. Though, I still wanted to try it out. What do you guys think about them? How has it benefited you? What do you do during them?
Considered calling the hotline for something even though I know people say it's not helpful.
I still feel so guilty about it because I'm so used to just telling myself I'm too sensitive and should just suck it up. I really still feel that now. However, I've noticed that whenever I try to toughen up and go to work anyways, I've made my worst mistakes on the job. I always end up thinking, "what if I didn't go to work like I felt I shouldn't have?" I'm in healthcare, so this weighs in on me because I could be hurting other people.
I don't really get what a mental health day can do right now because it feels like I'm just delaying the next day where I have to deal with everything again. Though, I still wanted to try it out. What do you guys think about them? How has it benefited you? What do you do during them?