coolgal82
she/her, terminally silly :3
- Sep 10, 2024
- 455
like my brain is so mean and loud but when theyre there its fine like sometimes i still feel shit but very rare, generally i just feel like nice and happy and it feels like everything is fine and nothing else in the world matters and i would genuinely just do this 24/7 if i could i would never get tired. i love them sm theyre so awesome aaaaaa i wish it could just be me and them together forever 24/7 365 no need for food or drink or breaks i love them
then when they go its back to hell and everything is just cringe and bad and ew and i just miss them so much when theyre gone and like i cant talk to them like outside of vc really cus i dont wanna bother them and come off as like too obsessed cus then they'll leave but being away from them just hurts like i can usually barely focus on anything (like adhd doesnt help but its way worse) and like i can distract myself kinda but like i always go back to being sad and missing them and my life feels so pointless and empty when theyre not there and if i have to like go a night without talking to them its especially bad
what kind of like substance or anything would like replicate that feeling or stop the second one idfk i need it to stop i cant take it i cant take being without them it makes me wanna die. im not asking for like sources to get them i just want names of substances that could either make me feel that way or distract me or whatever.
then when they go its back to hell and everything is just cringe and bad and ew and i just miss them so much when theyre gone and like i cant talk to them like outside of vc really cus i dont wanna bother them and come off as like too obsessed cus then they'll leave but being away from them just hurts like i can usually barely focus on anything (like adhd doesnt help but its way worse) and like i can distract myself kinda but like i always go back to being sad and missing them and my life feels so pointless and empty when theyre not there and if i have to like go a night without talking to them its especially bad
what kind of like substance or anything would like replicate that feeling or stop the second one idfk i need it to stop i cant take it i cant take being without them it makes me wanna die. im not asking for like sources to get them i just want names of substances that could either make me feel that way or distract me or whatever.