What help do you need?

[Iwantoutrightnow]

After a terrible few days I am due to be contacted by the mental health team. I'm dreading it. When I was discharged last year it wasn't the friendliest of partings and I hold very little hope that they will offer support today, I'm sure that they will just say 'sorry, no we can't help you'. But if they do I know that their first question will be 'what help do you need?' I have no idea what would help and I hate it when they ask. It seems similar to going to a doctor about physical health and they say 'ok, you have these symptoms, from your lay person perspective tell me (who has studied this field in depth for years), what the right treatment course is'. And then if you say you don't know what help you need they say 'well if you don't know how are we supposed to know'. It's infuriating!

So, in the small hope that they will offer support, what sort of help could I say I need?

 

[SoIntoYou]

Depends. Not to be obtuse, but can you explain your situation?

 

[Iwantoutrightnow]

1. Terrified to leave my flat. I don't want people to see me because then I exist in their world and I'm a danger to them.

2. I'm scared to sleep at night because of the nightmares. I wake up crying, gasping for breath and drenched in sweat. I never want to go to sleep and when I do I'm disappointed that I didn't die in the night.

3. My concentration is poor, I struggle to watch t.v and listen to it at the same time, I read a page of a book and have no idea what I've just read.

4. Thoughts are so fast and I can't slow them down. My head feels like it's buzzing and about to explode.

5. I never feel clean. I can be in the shower for ages but the second I turn the water off I feel dirty again. I see spiders crawling out of my skin taking the poison in me out to infect the world.

I don't know what would help any of these things, I'm not sure that there is anything so I have no idea how to ask

 

[SoIntoYou]

1. Terrified to leave my flat. I don't want people to see me because then I exist in their world and I'm a danger to them.

2. I'm scared to sleep at night because of the nightmares. I wake up crying, gasping for breath and drenched in sweat. I never want to go to sleep and when I do I'm disappointed that I didn't die in the night.

3. My concentration is poor, I struggle to watch t.v and listen to it at the same time, I read a page of a book and have no idea what I've just read.

4. Thoughts are so fast and I can't slow them down. My head feels like it's buzzing and about to explode.

5. I never feel clean. I can be in the shower for ages but the second I turn the water off I feel dirty again. I see spiders crawling out of my skin taking the poison in me out to infect the world.

I don't know what would help any of these things, I'm not sure that there is anything so I have no idea how to ask

The constant nightmares and the waking up in sweat makes me feel like you're being pestered by negative entities. When's the last time you lived in a different place and did you have the same experiences? If this is specific to your flat, you might be able to get help from a spiritual professional that does house cleansing. If this is constant no matter where you live, you need to do the cleansing internally. Spirituality is very real and maybe you've been vulnerable because you didn't believe in it. Search online for guides that you think will help you based on what I've said. If you want, I will maintain contact with you and help you with your search.
If this is the same mental health team that discharged you on bad terms, I doubt they can help you. If you reached out to them, they would probably end up hurting you with inaccurate medications or institutionalizing you, which is an invitation for abuse. Let me know what you think.

 

[mathieu]

They sound really unhelpful, I'm sorry. You could ask them to visit you to listen and offer advice, maybe?

 

[Iwantoutrightnow]

It doesn't matter now. The psychiatrist and a cpn turned up at my flat just to tell me that, as I was told when they discharged me, they have expended their resources on me and they can't help me.

Recovery is not an option for me but at least now the tiny shred of hope that was aiding my SI has gone so ctb should be easier now. Thanks for your support

 

[Deleted member 17949]

The kind that makes me not ugly and stupid tbh

Probably therapy and meds, I can't think of anything else

 

[Meditation guide]

Not to have ten different and serious diseases. And a pandemic going on.