Discussion What is the least enjoyable aspect of your life?

[Anxieyote]

The very worst thing that makes you dread waking up every morning.

 

[ClownMe]

There's endless things that make my existence miserable, I gues the biggest factor would have to be the repetitiveness of everything, every day feels like Groundhog Day for me.

 

[OrcWitch]

Companionship, or the lack of it. It is my "emotional deficit" and my plague. Also noise.

 

[Makko]

"No new horror can be more terrible than the daily torture of the commonplace"

 

[Deleted member 8579]

"No new horror can be more terrible than the daily torture of the commonplace"

You're such a Lovecraft fangirl.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

My intensely high sex drive and my loneliness though not combined.

 

[Makko]

You're such a Lovecraft fangirl.

I'm glad I can still fangirl over something.

 

[AtMostOkay]

My father.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Chronic undiagnosed illness. I open my eyes and my vision swims, my body is off balance and exhausted, every system in me either hurts or doesn't work well. 24 hours a day. I hate waking up.

 

[aviation]

The shell nature of this world causes me constant pain, as I can't help but compare it to "what things should be like" (within my frame of reference), what things are like at home. There are a lot of things about this world that cause me pain due to my groundwork not being compatible with it, that I couldn't really grasp or name. I'm very deeply affected by energy, so I often feel like I'm thrown around by waves, depending on what things feel like, be it times of the day, times of the year, 'where people are' - what shapes all of these, rather - as it has a very deep effect on my emotions and mental (processing) state. The "plus" side of this, though, is that I don't think I've ever experienced boredom. :^)

 

[deflationary]

Waking up itself is pretty bad. My first thought always seems to be a miserable one and that's then followed by a realization that I'm just gonna have to be fighting for another day to keep myself distracted and hold the misery at bay somehow. There's never any actual positive end in sight. Just endless and hopeless striving to not be buried under misery.

Also, simply seeing other people move through life with energy and purpose. It disgusts me. I can't stand the sight of my family. Or people acting peppy at work. Having conversations is torture because of what a charade they are. I have nothing to say to normal people.

 

[Anxieyote]

I can't stand the sight of my family. Or people acting peppy at work. Having conversations is torture because of what a charade they are. I have nothing to say to normal people.

Normal people are actually very triggering. They seem to be navigating through life somewhat effortlessly, and seeing them so unbothered is a sight to behold. Can you imagine getting your needs met and functioning well in almost any situation?

And when you interact with them, they've gotten very good at that "charade", you speak of. On these forums, our actual thoughts rise to the surface, and there is little need for pleasantries. But with them, it is all about charade maintenance.

I think I've actually gotten worse at it over the years, and I can't help but give off vibes of frustration and impatience with almost everyone I meet. Then again, if people were actually authentic with their thoughts…I can't imagine they'd have very nice things to say about me.

 

[existtosuffer]

Anxiety & dread usually hit me the moment I realise my body no longer requires sleep. I usually look on this forum to help me remember I'm not alone.

 

[hʚll]

a constant feeling of corruption in all things.it's oppressive, nauseating. choking

 

[deflationary]

I think I've actually gotten worse at it over the years, and I can't help but give off vibes of frustration and impatience with almost everyone I meet.

Same. The more miserable I am, the worse at socializing I am. I guess that's obvious. Being miserable is a full-time job and doesn't leave you much energy for anything else. I can usually pull off like 1-2 sentences but after that I'm out of there If I do have to pretend interest in something for longer than that, I just end up feeling dirty for the utter nonsense I have to say to keep a conversation going. I wish it was possible to just be honest with people.

 

[Makko]

Being miserable is a full-time job

If I could bill for being miserable I'd drain the national currency reserve

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

I wish it was possible to just be honest with people.

I wish it was possible to just be quiet with people.

 

[deflationary]

I wish it was possible to just be quiet with people.

If I could be honest with them I'd tell them to keep quiet. :)

 

[motel rooms]

Normal people are actually very triggering. They seem to be navigating through life somewhat effortlessly, and seeing them so unbothered is a sight to behold.

simply seeing other people move through life with energy and purpose. It disgusts me.

@AnxiousSchizoid & @deflationary, you guys would really want to stab the "surface me" to death. Or maybe you wouldn't; normies are always under the impression that I'm laughing with them when I'm actually laughing at them. It's amusing how predictably dumb they are & how easy it is to get them to brag about their pathetic little lives & "achievements" for your entertainment. Of course, I don't have to deal with too many of them on a daily basis, which is a great luxury. Better to make less money than suffer brain damage from working alongside them.

The least enjoyable aspect of my life are the flashbacks & nightmares of abuse.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Having to wake up period. As soon as I do my mind is flooded with thoughts that are mentally crippling. Add to that having to be around people and it makes life truly difficult to keep going.

 

[Anxieyote]

@AnxiousSchizoid & @deflationary, you guys would really want to stab the "surface me" to death. Or maybe you wouldn't; normies are always under the impression that I'm laughing with them when I'm actually laughing at them. It's amusing how predictably dumb they are & how easy it is to get them to brag about their pathetic little lives & "achievements" for your entertainment.

Are you good at blending in with them then? I try, but people can always tell something is a little "off". I don't get invited to parties, or even group chats. Just from the way I talk and act, people can sense I'm an imposter. I give off Mark Zuckerberg vibes, where it seems like I'm a lizard trying to pass off as a real human.

 

[deflationary]

@AnxiousSchizoid & @deflationary, you guys would really want to stab the "surface me" to death. Or maybe you wouldn't; normies are always under the impression that I'm laughing with them when I'm actually laughing at them.

I do wonder how many people I've met in my life that I could have actually somewhat related to if we had just shared stuff about ourselves beyond the surface level. I'm sure there's been one or two.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, it is just everything. Just being trapped in this body with the same thoughts, feelings of dread and hopelessness, knowing that each day will just bring the same misery. To be specific, probably feeling ill, tinnitus and having to deal with people as I am very introverted.

 

[motel rooms]

Are you good at blending in with them then? I try, but people can always tell something is a little "off".

Like I said, I don't really have to deal with too many normies every single day. I'm relaxed around them because it's not my goal to blend in; I just do my thing (mild sarcasm & inappropriate humor). My not giving a shit about their opinion paradoxically makes them want to "win my approval" by laughing at jokes & observations they don't even understand half the time. It's not that I'm a genius, they're just that lame.

Also, false modesty aside, most women dig me (I tell them I'm gay as a penguin, but they think that's just another joke) & most guys are impressed by that, so they want to be my little friends. Come to think of it, maybe it all comes down to my looks. If I were considered ugly, maybe nobody except a couple of nerds would find my compulsive need to make jokes acceptable

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Must be the emotional pain.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

Any obligations I need to do. I dread anything from homework to chores cause it needs me to take an action.

 

[back_to_oblivion]

The emptiness, isolation and boredom. The complete lack of intimacy and depth. All of it mostly due to my own shortcomings, being too distant and detached, being incapable of forming close and intimate relationships, bad social skills. I don't know, maybe I'm socially and emotionally retarded or something?

 

[netrezven]

Jelousy of people. Beeing around people i don't like - problem solved long time ago. Beeing fucked up because of stupid desigions that the public makes - drives me crazy. I do respect some rules like red lights, crosswalks /hot chicks/ and some little stuff, but i can't understand following orders, stupid laws, restricticions and everything someone else desided for me, without asking.
I mean, our kids are born and what - we tell them how we made the world for them and they should be ok with that. WHY?

 

[CogitoMori]

Lonliness. Knowing I'll never be cared about or worth anything

 

[Forever Sleep]

Probably money or rather, the need to earn it and the difficulty doing so in a job I find tolerable.

If I suffer poor health again though, it will be that.