What keeps you going?

[Joey]

Everyday when I wake up seems to be a blessing. There's days when it's hard and you just don't want to get out of bed but it's good to push through sometimes.

What motivates you to keep moving forward?

 

[KLUF]

Everyday when I wake up seems to be a blessing.

Wow, first time I see such optimism here.
I kinda don't have a purpose to live but don't want or afraid to die either. I think my family keeps me going. Hopefully I'll find something to live for while they are around. If I were living alone I'd have CTB-ed by now.

 

[Alucard]

Illusion.

 

[Deleted member 19276]

For now... Probably SS. :( Nothing else that much...

 

[No_more]

My cat and not wanting to be homeless.

 

[Alucard]

For now... Probably SS. :( Nothing else that much...

SS too , indeed ^^

 

[so tired or manic]

My animals. They need me. As sick as my one cat is even a no-kill shelter would put him down because the cost to keep him healthy would outweigh the costs of keeping healthier animals off the streets. He's not on death's door by any means and always wants cuddles and tunes in very well on when I'm having a bad time.

maybe some day I'll learn to live for myself. maybe some day I'll give into the suicidal thoughts where no one will try to "save" me. I don't particularly care about hypotheticals in this case and would rather just keep plugging along working towards goals that I may or may not succeed at reaching.

 

[Woodnote]

My dogs.

 

[puppy9]

SS and my second order of SN sitting in my cupboard.

The first order looks dodgy coz it comes in a bag, so I ordered a properly sealed bottled.

 

[pickajack]

Being in water

 

[Sensei]

I not sure actually, but I think hope, hope that things could turn better, however bad the odds. It's perhaps delusional, but it keeps me going for now.

 

[Abgrundanziehung]

My five pets that I know ex will struggle to properly take care of when I'm gone. Not that he's incompetent, but four of them are rabbits and anyone who owns bunnies knows they are not low maintenance, lol.

 

[misha]

i laid my head on my moms chest today while she patted my head and i felt alright for a few minutes

 

[RRH]

Insufficient cognitive ability to properly plan my exit. I wish I was still manic..

 

[grungeCat]

My cats lol kappa. They're one of the last things I still care about.

 

[ocd is bad]

I'm worried that my suicide would hurt others. I guess I'm trapped between not wanting to live and being worried about dying.

 

[lissyb]

Everyday when I wake up seems to be a blessing. There's days when it's hard and you just don't want to get out of bed but it's good to push through sometimes.

What motivates you to keep moving forward?

The only thing that keeps me alive is that I still haven't mustered enough courage to end my life. I hope to do it before September.
(sorry for my English, I can't speak or write it well)

 

[Mr2005]

Making the playlists I'll be uploading shortly. Kind of anxious about finishing them because I don't know what to do now

 

[GonnaGoBye]

A little bit of hope. I guess.

 

[draw a circle]

Routine, probably. Would set off alarm bells in people's head if I stopped waking up like usual. Also, a date with my friend this Friday, though lately it's not as fun as it used to be. I just got a bunch of manga shipped to my house and I need to read it. Little things.

 

[ByeByeBaby]

My boyfriend. He's the kindest person I've ever met and I'm trying to become someone worthy of having such a sweetheart. Also my mother. Especially worried about my mother since a lot of people have been really shitty and cruel to her and I worry about who will keep her safe from that kind of stuff if I'm not around.

Also my dog cries when I leave the house so I can only imagine how he'd react to me not being around anymore. I actually had a dream once about my mother opening up the door to the house and instead of being greeted by my happy dog like she always is, all she can hear is him upstairs howling and crying. Then she goes upstairs to find me no longer alive so her and my dog just sit there and cry hopelessly together while they wait for someone to take my body away. I woke up from the dream shaking and sweating with tears in my eyes and went to go hug my dog and tell him I'm so sorry.

Ever since then I've been trying to keep pushing, although there are days where I feel like I can't do it. Hence me being here.

 

[Nothing]

I don't even know, I think I lack of ways and strenght to do it.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Anime, food, games and the fact that I'm supposed to be studying or something

 

[I_love_to_bake]

My love for my family

 

[hershberger]

Family. Nothing else.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

Not leaving my kids alone.

 

[pickajack]

Picking and eating fuit

 

[I_love_to_bake]

Also, the wonderful supportive people on this site :)

 

[a.n.kirillov]

A love of the mystery

 

[runningonempty]

I am surprised that no one has mentioned spite. I have been used, abused, abandoned, taken advantaged of, thrown to the wayside, etc. and to finally kill myself will bring nothing but joy and blessings to all those who have wronged me. The mere thought of this is enough to feel like I need to "win" somehow. I can't let them have the last laugh.

Though as I get older, the fire that fuels this anger and spitefulness burns colder and colder. There have been times where it was reduced to embers and I felt utterly vanquished and defeated. It was an incredibly surreal feeling; one where I literally did not care about anything anymore. The people I hated the most could torture me and I wouldnt even fight back. My ego, the last bit of self preservation and dignity, was almost irreparably shattered. Scary times.

Although indeed I can be "too angry to die" sometimes, it is still just one factor. There's quite a few others that may have been mentioned before like ambivalence, fear, laziness, etc. I just wanted to mention this.