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zzz919

I'm Nobody
Sep 19, 2018
96
What makes you feel human again? ...... I don't mean drugs or alcohol ...... What do you physically do to feel better ...... For me it is ...... music ...... Music ...... MUSIC ...... Songs like Jimi Hendrix "All Along the Watchtower" ...... KISS "Rock and Roll All Nite" ...... David Bowie "Rebel Rebel" ...... Melissa Etheridge "Come To My Window" ...... Def Leppard "Rock of Ages" ...... The Spinners "I'll Be Around" and "Rubberband Man" ...... Stevie Wonder "Master Blaster" ...... Johnny Cash "Folsom Prison Blues" ...... Neil Diamond "Brother Love's Travelling Salvation Show" ...... Ozzy Osbourne "Mr. Crowley" ...... and last but not least ...... Van Halen "Runnin' With the Devil".
 
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hunter_lewis

Specialist
Sep 17, 2018
335
watching netflix
 
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Temporarilyabsurd

Temporarilyabsurd

NOISE:signal
Apr 27, 2018
438
I changed the oil in my van today ... a few thousand clicks overdue .

She's my girl , and it's love . A lot of k's and trouble free tentless camping .

Feels good . ( first proactive thing I've done for a while ... )

I listen to some later Dylan , Brian Eno ambients , 80's The The , The Cure . BOWIE ( he's one of my religions ... ) Patti Smith (Horses only) , Tom Petti ( to die for that guitar ) .... Oh and a bit of Bass mans Jah Wobble boring as fuck but one or two epics ....... Cold Play ,

Just yesterday I listened to the CD of Clint Eastwoods blues piano movie and was stoked.


Who else ? Some old time fifties jazz from my family days ... Errol Garner ' Gemini' is basically listening to God tickle the ivories on speed. ( Listened to it since 12yo so totally brainwashed ...)

Music is the ultimate buzz.

Living can be ok with it going on.

( I've listened to music at work ad infinitum for years ... and it's weird the stuff that can stay the distance and the phases of lovin' some stuff and then , not so much any more ... )

Just lately I am putting on stuff quite selectively ... part of a shift I think .
 
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QueenEtna

Gone
Jul 29, 2018
256
Play games, but it makes me forget about even existing.
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
Girls, drugs, and alcohol.
 
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Voldmort

Experienced
Sep 23, 2018
287
Read books, listen music, watch Netflix and and have fun with my friends, although the latter is less and less frequent.
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
Competition. Brings me back to the football days in high school. I felt great alor of the time then.
 
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satou

satou

not yet
Sep 3, 2018
225
the laughter of my 1 year old cousin...
 
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starcrossedfate

starcrossedfate

Passenger
Sep 24, 2018
240
Nothing.
 
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Mugara

Mugara

if i count to ten, will it all go away?
Sep 12, 2018
40
Games, music, youtube. I enjoy this stuff less then before but it makes good distraction.
 
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Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,286
Music has no effect on me anymore. If music still affects you then maybe ctb is still a long way off for you
 
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satou

satou

not yet
Sep 3, 2018
225
Music has no effect on me anymore. If music still affects you then maybe ctb is still a long way off for you
Not everyone suffers from anhedonia. I feel that for me it would be quite the opposite, the stronger my emotions (both positive and negative), the more likely I would be to end it.
 
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ThisIsTheEnd

ThisIsTheEnd

Waste of oxygen
Aug 22, 2018
90
I read, play games, listen to music, and read stuff on here.
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
Music has no effect on me anymore. If music still affects you then maybe ctb is still a long way off for you
Yae I never thought id see the day music doesn't do anything for me. Breaks my heart.
 
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zzz919

I'm Nobody
Sep 19, 2018
96
Thank you to all who posted in this thread ...... I feel almost human when I post something and people respond ...... When I go out into the "real world" I am invisible ...... Unless I make someone angry ...... I must admit that there have been a few occasions when I intentionally made someone angry just so I did not have to be alone ...... It sounds crazy ...... However ...... I live in a large American city ...... There is a big imaginary wall between me and the rest of the city ...... I have not been able to connect with anyone outside of school.
 
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RacilyDank

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
321
Nothing. If it did I wouldn't be here.
 
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skitliv

skitliv

Le mort joyeux
Jul 11, 2018
485
Music has no effect on me anymore. If music still affects you then maybe ctb is still a long way off for you
Not even died in your arms tonight??
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
Music has no effect on me anymore. If music still affects you then maybe ctb is still a long way off for you
Please stop being a troll
 
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Ben

Warlock
Sep 12, 2018
784
Music has no effect on me anymore. If music still affects you then maybe ctb is still a long way off for you

No way. No freaking way. We can enjoy stuff before we KTB! I understand not being able to get enjoyment out of anything, but that's a pretty large blanket statement to play off as fact for everyone.

Music is therapy for me. Music blocks out bad thoughts. Music gives me goosebumps. Music explains my feelings better then I can.

But music will not save my life
 
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Miss clefable

Enlightened
Aug 23, 2018
1,577
No way. No freaking way. We can enjoy stuff before we KTB! I understand not being able to get enjoyment out of anything, but that's a pretty large blanket statement to play off as fact for everyone.

Music is therapy for me. Music blocks out bad thoughts. Music gives me goosebumps. Music explains my feelings better then I can.

But music will not save my life
Music is a temporary escapism from realism
 
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DeadMemories

DeadMemories

We are playing a game, and the game runs like this
Mar 27, 2018
9
I find audio books helps me feel better. Games dont really hold my interest like they once did but there's something about books, being taken away into a whole other world and experience what the character is going through instead of yourself.
 
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Wantingpeace

Wantingpeace

Wizard
Aug 16, 2018
672
Lorazepam is only thing that reverses what happened to brain temporarily then all of life comes back and I'm totally fine. But for various reasons can only take occasional and then back in absolute hell where there is absolutely nothing. Literally no life
 
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wezel

wezel

Experienced
Aug 14, 2018
221
Making music. For hours. Its the only thing left, but it won't save me.
 
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Wantingpeace

Wantingpeace

Wizard
Aug 16, 2018
672
Lorazepam is only thing that reverses what happened to brain temporarily then all of life comes back and I'm totally fine. But for various reasons can only take occasional and then back in absolute hell where there is absolutely nothing. Literally no life

I could live if could take this every day or brain would just switch back to pre damage up But neither seem possible.
 
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