Discussion What makes you uncertain about committing suicide?

[StaticCryBabye]

Since I've seen the question about "what makes you really happy about committing suicide" Question i thought it'd be interesting to ask the other way around.

For me, it'll be the idea of reincarnation. I think for the most part it's gonna be a gambling scenario because there's endless possibilities for it, such as reincarnating in a rich family in a fantasy world just or simply being reborn in a much worse condition, but it's not really much of a concern for me since, even if it's true, I'd technically still be a new person, devoid of my old self with new beliefs, feelings, and way of thinking, just a completely different person, which for me is still a great deal. Though I'll still prefer if there's just nothing after death.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

I'd say its mostly what happens after we die, plus the fact I may be dying before something good happens to me (just my SI telling me this, as its been the same for years)

 

[ConfusedClouds]

Risk of failure and illness/injury/disability and in my case also then putting red flags on my medical records

 

[Minu]

I dont want to make my family and friends sad.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

A few things. Risk of failure, hurting my family emotionally, leaving my cat, and a small fear that the afterlife could be worse than this if there is one, though this fear is marginal compared to the other reasons.

 

[SomewhatLoved]

Risk of failure, fear of pain in dying, and guilt over how my family will feel.

Don't care so much about what happens after. Don't believe anything will, but I'm done with this life I think.

 

[CantDoIt]

Fear of the unknown / not knowing what happens after death, and knowing family will be devastated.

 

[divinemistress36]

Fear of becoming a vegetable. I fear reincarnation to I dont want to come back mentally ill again

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd personally never wish to suffer in this existence, I have no interest in suffering and would prefer to not exist no matter what, non-existence is all that's desirable to me, what I'd fear is ending up in a situation of way worse agony from trying to die going wrong, it's so horrific to me how such could happen. What terrifies me about existence is that there is no limit as to how torturous and unbearable it can get, I just wish I could have the option to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence I always saw as so cruel and pointless in the first place.

 

[affirmatice]

Hurting/having to leave my friends, family, amazing girlfriend.

Potential pain in last moments/failure.

What happens afterward, never been religious. But who knows what happens, and who know if I get reincarnated (although either way it's inevitable as we all die eventually)

Nonetheless, if I was given a button to instantly, painlessly end my life. I think the decision would be almost 100% easy. So I guess primarily it's a fear of the process, pain, anxiety,

 

[zekeyaeger]

Risk of failure and pain while dying, yup, that would be it.

 

[mercybell]

- fear of failure.

When I am to depart from my bag of flesh, I don't want to fail and end up a cripple or a vegetable unable to take further action.

- The logistics of letting people know about my departure, and the things I leave behind.

My job is one of the few things I remain attached to. It's a small business. The shifts I work would be hard to find a cover for on short notice. I don't want to fuck them over when they've been nothing but good to me.
My cats. I don't want them to be put down.

- Wanting to wait til things get "better"

I want to see my parents get jobs and have housing. I don't think they'd be able to handle my departure and not having a stable place to stay.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Fear of failing and ending up with permanent, harsh injuries.

But also that I can't even access a suicide method to begin with so, even if I wasn't uncertain with ctb, I still can't ctb

 

[Redleaf1992]

Knowing the hurt it cause on my family has kept me going. I'd know it would destroy my mum.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Mainly, the fear of failing an attempt and ending up in a worse state. All that that entails basically- the possibility of having to call for medical assistance if it's clear the attempt has failed. I'm sort of near phobic level about inconveniencing people. The likelihood of going to a psyche ward and everyone finding out. The worry of developing long-term health issues in reaction. I'm screwed if I'm no longer able to support myself.

The fear of pain and fear of fear itself during the attempt is also bad. Plus, all the unknown elements to it. Just how much pain and distress will there be? How long will it last?

Then, to a slightly lesser degree, worries about an afterlife. Plus, guilt for the mess it's going to leave to clear up and the impact it might have on people.

It's by no means an easy decision. It's one I resent feeling like I'm forced in to a position to make too. I don't really know what my parents were thinking. That old age and natural death would be fun to experience. That I wouldn't mind that. I wish would-be parents would think more about death before they consider bringing life here. Both their own (that we'll likely have to witness) and ours.

 

[swankysoup]

I would say the aftermath of a failed attempt, but i think SN is said to not be likely to cause brain damage or other severe problems in case of a failed ctb. I'm not sure though.

 

[JR_Timm]

Fear of failing for a third time is a biggest show stopper at the moment.

 

[avalonisburning]

The only reason I'm even still here is because I know if I do it, I'll let the one person I care about on this planet down and they'll be alone.

As for the idea of reincarnation, a lot of people gas up the universe like it's a sadistic genie that metes out ironic punishments for perceived slights, because that's something they would do if they were all powerful and all knowing. The idea is just an expression and refinement of ancient human social dynamics and their comfort-seeking desire for justice, answers, and control in a random and chaotic world with little of any, and not reflective of any universal truth.

 

[BeijaFlor]

to be leaving behind an experience which i'm being imposed to leave behind, due to external circunstances

i dont mind being alive, as long as i can tolerate the pain n suffering

otherwise, well... n it all feels out of my control