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PursuitofWonder

PursuitofWonder

Student
Dec 12, 2020
137
I've tried every recovery option available to me and nothing helped. I hate being alive but I'm scared of death. What are my options going forward?, some days it seems like ctb is the only option.
 
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issyishere

issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
441
Which options were available to you and how long did you try them?
 
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PursuitofWonder

PursuitofWonder

Student
Dec 12, 2020
137
Which options were available to you and how long did you try them?
Have been to inpatient for 3 months, have tried 4 antidepressants, 3 years of therapy, and am in the middle of TMS, nothing helps.
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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Have been to inpatient for 3 months, have tried 4 antidepressants, 3 years of therapy, and am in the middle of TMS, nothing helps.
Have you had a good connection with therapists? It's important they understand and empathize with you for it to help.
 
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PursuitofWonder

PursuitofWonder

Student
Dec 12, 2020
137
Have you had a good connection with therapists? It's important they understand and empathize with you for it to help.
I have a good connection with my therapist but I don't trust him to keep my info private from my family.
 
Sherri

Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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Agree with Rosey, have you looked for professional help? It's a hit or miss but maybe could help you.
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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I have a good connection with my therapist but I don't trust him to keep my info private from my family.
If you can't trust him it's time for a new one. You can't get help if you can't talk.
 
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PursuitofWonder

PursuitofWonder

Student
Dec 12, 2020
137
Agree with Rosey, have you looked for professional help? It's a hit or miss but maybe could help you.
I have had almost every type of professional help imaginable. A therapist, A CBT therapist, 3 months on inpatient care, psychiatry, medications, TMS, idk what else there is
 
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Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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I have had almost every type of professional help imaginable. A therapist, A CBT therapist, 3 months on inpatient care, psychiatry, medications, TMS, idk what else there is
Oh dear, sorry to hear that, a few years ago I was also impatient for 3 weeks only. Did more harm than good tbh.
 
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